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Im lonely and I feel unloved.
He straight up left work to comfort me when I said I needed a hug before.
Nothing is like that now. He spends very little time with me. When he is here , everything feels fine, but not good. Not true affection. He doesn't seem to want to be touched by me, let alone touch me. Hug maybe, but kissing is always initiated by me, and he rarely seems to actually want it. When he is gone we rarely talk. He is taking up hanging out with other people, and does not tell me about his days or what he has done. He doesn't tell me anything on a deeper level for sure, saying that there is either nothing to say or he feels different, and cant talk to me like before.
EVerything is shit and I know it. But I love him so much.
I imagine grasping at a fleeing cloud. This is what it feels like. And I hurt.
He straight up left work to comfort me when I said I needed a hug before.
Nothing is like that now. He spends very little time with me. When he is here , everything feels fine, but not good. Not true affection. He doesn't seem to want to be touched by me, let alone touch me. Hug maybe, but kissing is always initiated by me, and he rarely seems to actually want it. When he is gone we rarely talk. He is taking up hanging out with other people, and does not tell me about his days or what he has done. He doesn't tell me anything on a deeper level for sure, saying that there is either nothing to say or he feels different, and cant talk to me like before.
EVerything is shit and I know it. But I love him so much.
I imagine grasping at a fleeing cloud. This is what it feels like. And I hurt.