Oh, beautiful hangover....

[winterrose]

Yup yup, I got drunk as hell last night. And you know, considering some of the shit that happened (which will not be mentioned, sorry :( ) I wish I was one of those people who can't remember what happens when they're drunk. But yeah, so I have a hangover. My head hurts like a bitch, and right now, I've been sitting around trying to think of whom I should call cause I really wanna go out tonight but I don't really want to go to the mall for all that long, ya know? I'm thinking I should call Keith and ask if he wants to go to the movies or bowling or something, but I can't bring myself do do it cause it's only 12:42 pm and with my luck, he'd still be in bed. Why? Cause he sucks. I think he's changed... he's so unattentative of me now. We used to be really good friends... now since we broke up it's like I barely exist to him, I'm just the chic he drives back and forth to school. I find it so hard to even laugh at his cutesy little antics anymore because I'm so preoccupied with being upset because things aren't the way they were before we started going out or WHATEVER we were doing at that time. It's so depressing. Maybe I'm just being sappy and pathetic, but, ya know, it's what I do best. I really do hate being appart from him. I think I really do love him, I mean, I said it without thinking about it and ppl say that's your basic clue to whether you are or not. So I guess I am in love with him, and you know what, that scares me, cause I don't think I've ever been in love before and it's even scarier than just normallly being in love cause we're not going out anymroe or anything. He's just so damn perfect, damn him. Grrrr!!!! What the fuck..... Why do I always fall for the guys who don't like me back, or at least not the way I want them to? It really sucks, incredibly. Cause I have all these really strong feelings for him and it feels like if I ignore them much longer I'm just going to explode one day when I'm chillin with him. Damnit I'm thinking to much and now my brain hurts more. Well, I'mm gonna jet until this hangover calms down a bit. Later!!LYLs,
WinterRose

"I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the gun
Blow me
Away"
~Defotnes, Change (In the House of Flies)