Goodbye, Rio del Oro
It was today, a year ago... I miss you so much.
I can't say i was completely unprepared for your death when it happened, since the doctors told us about 2 days before you left, that nothing could be done to save you. But even if i had some time to say goodbye, it still hurt so much...
When it finally happened, for some reason i couldn't feel anything. I was almost completely numb.
Then, after a while i lost my shields, and so many thoughts, so many feelings and raw pain flooded me that i could barely cope.
It was like drowning.
The sadness in your eyes and voice, when i told you i had to leave your side for a while the last time i saw you healthy.
The fact that you couldn't even hear me and know i was there with you while you were in the hospital.
The intense pain reflected in your face when you had those tubes all over your body.
My foolish certainty that you had many more years to live, as if people were immortal, and loved ones all the more.
And today, just like you disappeared from my life, it's the last time i'm gonna be able to see your home. It's another goodbye i was unprepared for. They just told me a week ago they were gonna sell it.
I'm so weak. It's pretty lame to feel so sad for losing a house. And no one else here seems to be feeling too bad about it. What's wrong with me? I guess i must be too whiney.
It is a very special place for me, full of beautiful and sad memories. I don't feel ready to close that cycle and yet it's still gonna happen today.
So, all that's left to say is Goodbye "Rio del Oro"
Thank you for everything. I'll always remember.
Always.
I can't say i was completely unprepared for your death when it happened, since the doctors told us about 2 days before you left, that nothing could be done to save you. But even if i had some time to say goodbye, it still hurt so much...
When it finally happened, for some reason i couldn't feel anything. I was almost completely numb.
Then, after a while i lost my shields, and so many thoughts, so many feelings and raw pain flooded me that i could barely cope.
It was like drowning.
The sadness in your eyes and voice, when i told you i had to leave your side for a while the last time i saw you healthy.
The fact that you couldn't even hear me and know i was there with you while you were in the hospital.
The intense pain reflected in your face when you had those tubes all over your body.
My foolish certainty that you had many more years to live, as if people were immortal, and loved ones all the more.
And today, just like you disappeared from my life, it's the last time i'm gonna be able to see your home. It's another goodbye i was unprepared for. They just told me a week ago they were gonna sell it.
I'm so weak. It's pretty lame to feel so sad for losing a house. And no one else here seems to be feeling too bad about it. What's wrong with me? I guess i must be too whiney.
It is a very special place for me, full of beautiful and sad memories. I don't feel ready to close that cycle and yet it's still gonna happen today.
So, all that's left to say is Goodbye "Rio del Oro"
Thank you for everything. I'll always remember.
Always.