Zombie?

[winterling]

Ugh. It's finals time. I have a paper and an exam left and seriously no motivation. I passed the MPREs (the professional responsibility exam - I am now officially ethical enough to become a lawyer! I know, big accomplishment) so now basically all I have to do is finish this school year and pass the bar and I'll be a lawyer. I have a job. This is scary stuff. There's something nice about knowing where I'll be next year (New York) and not having to scramble to figure out what I'll be doing after graduation. I actually had a reassuring epiphany the other day that I really like art law and if I can intersperse all the mainstream litigation stuff I do with some art law now and then I might actually survive being a bigfirm lawyer with what remains of my sanity intact. But still I'm not ready for the responsibility of being an adult. I can barely handle the responsibility of being a student and I've had nearly nineteen years of perfecting that. I think I'm just disappointed in myself and my law school experience. I didn't devote enough of myself to law school but I also didn't stay in touch with friends enough. I've created this unstable, unsustainable routine for myself. But I guess that's law school. I just feel like I've done an especially bad job at it. I hope this isn't just what I'm like after college. I'm hoping that once I start work and have a real routine I go back to the person I was. Because I like the person I was at Smith a lot more than the person I am here. Wow this is getting depressing. Instead, I'm going to post the zombie meme. Who can be uncheered by a zombie?

This was actually kind of helpful, though. (The journaling, not the zombie quiz...) Maybe I'll try to do this more often. (Insert year long break before I write again.)