Que Sera, Sera - Whatever Will Be, Will Be
My piano exam turned out...
quite terrible (>_<)
I was actually shaking throughout it XD
One would think that after taking 6 other exams before, that I will be used to it XD
But that's not true....because it's me....
I get worried and scared too easily....|D
Well it first started with the scales which went fine, then the arpeggios were really wobbly to the point where they really weren't played smoothly (>_<) even my diminshed (and the other one XD) scale was terrible...and I actually prefer them to the arppegios...but I still couldn't play it smoothly....(>_<)
Then it was my first piece and seriously...that's my worst piece...and somehow I managed to play worse than usual...I missed so many notes, got out of rhythm, if I had been the guy who was marking me, I would've given myself a big fat zero (>_<)
Then the second piece which I am actually good at and confident about...but I still managed to mess it up...BUT I didn't mess up the bit that I was having real trouble getting the rhythm right though XD Which I only just managed to get the rhythm right just a few days ago |D But even so, I still messed it up by pressing the wrong keys and muddling it all up...(>_<)
Then the third piece, this is actually the piece that I love most out of the three and the one I'm most confident with, the only problem I had before the exam was flipping the pages because there was one page where I had to flip the page like a ninja because the melody carries on and theirs no rests =S
I managed to slow down dramatically for this piece (even though it's meant to be really fast hence the name presto) plus there was a bit that I kept messing up that I couldn't continue unless I got that bit right...(>_<) ...how terrible...one thing that actually went well was that I actually managed to flip the page without the book falling down or accidentally flipping two pages at once (which I kept doing during practices)
Then the sight-reading...I don't get why my piano teacher thinks I'm really good at sight-reading when I'm actually really not XD I just concentrated on getting the right notes and forgot the rhythm and the dynamics etc. XD so I failed at that one...
then it was the dreaded aural tests....first was singing 'the lower part of the melody'...which I failed at and didn't actually sing it properly...XD
Then it was the sight-singing...I mean why the hell do you need to be examined on how well you can sight-sing when you're a pianist?!? What is the point?!? I can't sing!!! (>_<)
And then all the other questions that came after that where I knew I got most of them wrong and had to smile apologetically at the examiner for wasting his time...(>_<)
After the exam I came out and one look at me, my piano teacher knew I didn't think I did really well, so she told me to have a break this week so no piano lesson on saturday! =D
And then the minute I stepped out of the door, tears started to swell up and I started to cry _A_ pretty pathetic aren't I?
I put my umbrella up so I could hide my face and people wouldn't notice
But after a while I came to my sense and thought that crying will not solve anything at all and it's best if I put everything behind me, because it's over and done with, I can't do anymore, I can't change anything
I know I did my best because I have been practicing most days and this grade 7, I have practiced more than I did for the other grades
Furthermore I only ad 3 months of practice therefore I had a shorter amount of time than I usually did to practice my pieces and getting them perfect (I usually have about a year before my exams)
So no matter what happens, at least I know I've tried my best =/
Que Sera, Sera - Whatever will be will be ne~?
So whatever the results are, I will be happy =)
If I do pass I will be grateful (and thankful for the examiner to be so kind as to let me pass despite everything XD)
quite terrible (>_<)
I was actually shaking throughout it XD
One would think that after taking 6 other exams before, that I will be used to it XD
But that's not true....because it's me....
I get worried and scared too easily....|D
Well it first started with the scales which went fine, then the arpeggios were really wobbly to the point where they really weren't played smoothly (>_<) even my diminshed (and the other one XD) scale was terrible...and I actually prefer them to the arppegios...but I still couldn't play it smoothly....(>_<)
Then it was my first piece and seriously...that's my worst piece...and somehow I managed to play worse than usual...I missed so many notes, got out of rhythm, if I had been the guy who was marking me, I would've given myself a big fat zero (>_<)
Then the second piece which I am actually good at and confident about...but I still managed to mess it up...BUT I didn't mess up the bit that I was having real trouble getting the rhythm right though XD Which I only just managed to get the rhythm right just a few days ago |D But even so, I still messed it up by pressing the wrong keys and muddling it all up...(>_<)
Then the third piece, this is actually the piece that I love most out of the three and the one I'm most confident with, the only problem I had before the exam was flipping the pages because there was one page where I had to flip the page like a ninja because the melody carries on and theirs no rests =S
I managed to slow down dramatically for this piece (even though it's meant to be really fast hence the name presto) plus there was a bit that I kept messing up that I couldn't continue unless I got that bit right...(>_<) ...how terrible...one thing that actually went well was that I actually managed to flip the page without the book falling down or accidentally flipping two pages at once (which I kept doing during practices)
Then the sight-reading...I don't get why my piano teacher thinks I'm really good at sight-reading when I'm actually really not XD I just concentrated on getting the right notes and forgot the rhythm and the dynamics etc. XD so I failed at that one...
then it was the dreaded aural tests....first was singing 'the lower part of the melody'...which I failed at and didn't actually sing it properly...XD
Then it was the sight-singing...I mean why the hell do you need to be examined on how well you can sight-sing when you're a pianist?!? What is the point?!? I can't sing!!! (>_<)
And then all the other questions that came after that where I knew I got most of them wrong and had to smile apologetically at the examiner for wasting his time...(>_<)
After the exam I came out and one look at me, my piano teacher knew I didn't think I did really well, so she told me to have a break this week so no piano lesson on saturday! =D
And then the minute I stepped out of the door, tears started to swell up and I started to cry _A_ pretty pathetic aren't I?
I put my umbrella up so I could hide my face and people wouldn't notice
But after a while I came to my sense and thought that crying will not solve anything at all and it's best if I put everything behind me, because it's over and done with, I can't do anymore, I can't change anything
I know I did my best because I have been practicing most days and this grade 7, I have practiced more than I did for the other grades
Furthermore I only ad 3 months of practice therefore I had a shorter amount of time than I usually did to practice my pieces and getting them perfect (I usually have about a year before my exams)
So no matter what happens, at least I know I've tried my best =/
Que Sera, Sera - Whatever will be will be ne~?
So whatever the results are, I will be happy =)
If I do pass I will be grateful (and thankful for the examiner to be so kind as to let me pass despite everything XD)