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[winterdalejeff]

I wanted to acknowledge this modern mode of interaction which has effected my life deeply and is still basically in its infancy...the internet allows us avenues to connect, partially and otherwise, and I've been doing this whole external identity since I was, hmm, 17? And I like that the verdict isn't out on it, like, the "30 years after myspace" or more specifically books like "the sickness which the dynamic of constant partial human connection creates" or something like that...I don't know how to fill the gaps with people in person, I fear, in part because of my insistence to connect to people online, instead of in person...that's a huge reason I'm alone I imagine. I've cut out the small talk cause I don't have to bother with that here; its all catharsis and immediecy on here, and that's why I'm depressed in person, cause life is primarily small talk, that gets to catharsis after mountains and mountains of small talk

But ill acknowledge that I'm demonizing and generalizing the small talk. I know its necessary because everyones catharsis isn't mine, and small talk is used to passively determine if you share your eventual catharsis, or not

So fuck, guess I gotta be alive for a little while