the teeth i no longer have
got my wisdom teeth out today. it was very painless. but now it hurts, and i have to take painkillers every four hours. but i mean, i can still walk around, eat soft foods, and talk coherently as i normally would. they even let me have the teeth, which (i'm guessing) were drilled and then cracked apart (yes, cracked). the part of the procedure that stood out the most was the nitrous gas (which made me feel like i was having an 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' experience) and the fact that i could smell my own teeth being drilled. pleasant isn't it? today i've eaten 1 milkshake, 1 cup of yogurt, and am currently working on a dq blizzard. i'm also thinking though, and i don't exactly know why, that maybe i won't be so uptight anymore. that maybe the fact that my impounded wisdom teeth (that were supposed to be taken out a couple years ago) have been applying a pressure to my head insufficient to cause headaches or other bodily pain, but enough to put my mind on constant thin ice. i know that sounds confusing and if not that, then a little far fetched.
here's another weird thing. they prescribed me three different types of pills. one of which was valium. now the valium actually didn't affect me that much (unless the way in which it did was unnoticeable). i was instructed to take one last night, and then one today before the surgery. when i took the one last night, it wasn't like being high or anything, it just relaxed me. and that was a really great feeling. i just sifted through some old notebooks of mine which had old song lyrics i had written long ago in them. the point of this is, it felt like i was on medication not to relax or numb me for the following day's surgery, but for more of a psychological reason. i was so carefree, and didn't think about anything that i usually think about when i'm alone with my thoughts (like all day. i'll get into that after this). it made me consider whether or not i needed to try and go to a counselor, and get something prescribed so i'm not having to deal with my crazy emotions all the time. however, all day i've been on these pills, and sometimes when i snap out of it i think to myself "i don't want to be like this, i just couldn't do this all day like this."
the three pills they gave me were the generics for valium, hydrocodone, and oxycontin.
what i was talking about earlier when i said i was alone with my thoughts was being at the stand. i'm out there all day, and unless my friends come by (which they have been recently and for that i am thankful) but if that doesn't happen, everything is inside my head. and i think, that sometimes this is the worst thing. my friends tell me to prevent thinking too much about negative things or other things that are bothering me by surrounding myself with my friends. the exact opposite happens at the fruit stand. lately, this has been becoming a problem.
whatever, i'm starting to feel nauseous now. i have to go.
may the summer be as good to you as you deserve.
here's another weird thing. they prescribed me three different types of pills. one of which was valium. now the valium actually didn't affect me that much (unless the way in which it did was unnoticeable). i was instructed to take one last night, and then one today before the surgery. when i took the one last night, it wasn't like being high or anything, it just relaxed me. and that was a really great feeling. i just sifted through some old notebooks of mine which had old song lyrics i had written long ago in them. the point of this is, it felt like i was on medication not to relax or numb me for the following day's surgery, but for more of a psychological reason. i was so carefree, and didn't think about anything that i usually think about when i'm alone with my thoughts (like all day. i'll get into that after this). it made me consider whether or not i needed to try and go to a counselor, and get something prescribed so i'm not having to deal with my crazy emotions all the time. however, all day i've been on these pills, and sometimes when i snap out of it i think to myself "i don't want to be like this, i just couldn't do this all day like this."
the three pills they gave me were the generics for valium, hydrocodone, and oxycontin.
what i was talking about earlier when i said i was alone with my thoughts was being at the stand. i'm out there all day, and unless my friends come by (which they have been recently and for that i am thankful) but if that doesn't happen, everything is inside my head. and i think, that sometimes this is the worst thing. my friends tell me to prevent thinking too much about negative things or other things that are bothering me by surrounding myself with my friends. the exact opposite happens at the fruit stand. lately, this has been becoming a problem.
whatever, i'm starting to feel nauseous now. i have to go.
may the summer be as good to you as you deserve.