what are you waiting for?

[winter_patience]

so let's see, i had three exams today, all of which i think i did moderately okay on. although when i finished my last exam i was anything but relieved and/or happy. here's what went through my mind as i made my way across park hall lighted with sorrowfully shimmering light from behind discouraging clouds:

i am a silent rage of a turbulent man
who's life reaches beaches with the consistancy of tides
who's heart floats with old iron sides
and maybe i'll sleep with fish's wishes
oh how does the iron heart float?
what was once in my care
is now my dispair
saying goodbye has never nearly been
so hard as saying hello
now like a painted bird candidate
or a plumage wave
sunrise
for the past two years i've painted nothing
but pretty colors to amuse me with their watercolor sheen
and how you dip the paper gently
from water you were born and to water you shall return
so that the frivolty of my life
may never again be seen

i don't know what all that babble is up there. its just a fathom of pablum. it's so werid, i really was happy with myself before exams, and now that they are over, it seems like i want to be as far away from myself as possible. somebody got a drink for me? eh? eh? let's take some "chasers" tonight with those beers.

cheers everyone, you won't find answers at the bottom of bottles, but the sense of accomplishment felt from having devoured the devil's wine sure feeds the demons inside your mind.

i am really really rediculous.