it's been awhile.
Hello world of no one.
It's been a long, long time.
So many angry, angsty posts here, but i'm going to forgive myself for it cause this used to be the only place for me to rant.
I've lost count of the days since i was last here. And the months prior to this day are in such a blur now. I've graduated, meaning in the last year of poly, i managed to pass maths. Well about time.
Well. It's hard to say this. But the curtains have closed on my relationship. It's been an extremely bumpy ride. If i could choose, I'd hold you close and never let you go, ever.
We decided on things last night.
Decided that it's enough.
It pains me plenty, but i know this is what's going to be best for you.
I know you'll move on, and find yourself an even better lady.
Not trying to seem strong or anything; this feels terrible to deal with, considering my feelings for you.
However, you have your doubts, your fears and insecurities, and I'm glad you're putting some hard thoughts into this situation we're in. I cannot allow this relationship to continue if you're hesitant on quite afew points, whether valid or not.
I don't know if i'm strong enough to handle things like seeing you often and maintaining communications with you. Hearing the hurt in your voice doesn't help me.
But as I said, this is necessary.
We'll move ahead on our own from this point on.
And it hurts knowing that the one i love is going to do all he can to get over me. The selfish parts of me want to stop him from going too far away, but i can't listen to that bitch. Sheesh..
The idea of you holding another is painful.
But I'm starting to understand the age-old words 'if you love someone, you should let them go'
That used to sound twisted beyond words to me. Like...why!?
If two are in love, what sense should break them apart?
....
But faced with the fact that I may be pain and sadness personified to him made it clear what must be done.
I don't want you to stay out of responsibility. That would be unfair to the both of us.
From what's happened... I can see your resolve to see this end through. I'm a little wistful, but a tiny bit proud that you're moving ahead too. Strange, isn't it?
I'm not upset or anything with her.
But hearing about her and your interest in her hurts.
I am a woman after all.
I'll truly be constantly wishing you well.
It's been a long, long time.
So many angry, angsty posts here, but i'm going to forgive myself for it cause this used to be the only place for me to rant.
I've lost count of the days since i was last here. And the months prior to this day are in such a blur now. I've graduated, meaning in the last year of poly, i managed to pass maths. Well about time.
Well. It's hard to say this. But the curtains have closed on my relationship. It's been an extremely bumpy ride. If i could choose, I'd hold you close and never let you go, ever.
We decided on things last night.
Decided that it's enough.
It pains me plenty, but i know this is what's going to be best for you.
I know you'll move on, and find yourself an even better lady.
Not trying to seem strong or anything; this feels terrible to deal with, considering my feelings for you.
However, you have your doubts, your fears and insecurities, and I'm glad you're putting some hard thoughts into this situation we're in. I cannot allow this relationship to continue if you're hesitant on quite afew points, whether valid or not.
I don't know if i'm strong enough to handle things like seeing you often and maintaining communications with you. Hearing the hurt in your voice doesn't help me.
But as I said, this is necessary.
We'll move ahead on our own from this point on.
And it hurts knowing that the one i love is going to do all he can to get over me. The selfish parts of me want to stop him from going too far away, but i can't listen to that bitch. Sheesh..
The idea of you holding another is painful.
But I'm starting to understand the age-old words 'if you love someone, you should let them go'
That used to sound twisted beyond words to me. Like...why!?
If two are in love, what sense should break them apart?
....
But faced with the fact that I may be pain and sadness personified to him made it clear what must be done.
I don't want you to stay out of responsibility. That would be unfair to the both of us.
From what's happened... I can see your resolve to see this end through. I'm a little wistful, but a tiny bit proud that you're moving ahead too. Strange, isn't it?
I'm not upset or anything with her.
But hearing about her and your interest in her hurts.
I am a woman after all.
I'll truly be constantly wishing you well.