Sleep.
you've been so sad. it's me, isn't it?
i know.
you've been thinking so much. it's pretty much my fault. i know how you think.
But sometimes i just wish that i didn't know.
me? can i be sad? i've been having so much crap from my parents, it's getting hard to ignore how negative it all makes me feel, you know? no, i don't think you do.
true, i know i fail at showing emotions. But. ARGH. Brick walls.
i'm sorry i fail.
sometimes, i wish i could sleep to forget it all too. but i know i'd hate that, cause thats no different from running away from things, even my own emotions.
But sometimes, sleep's allure is simply so strong, isn't it?
why do you sometimes seem like you're in such a rush to hang up? can i still trust you when you say things like 'i have to go...'?
or is it that you lie because you don't want to feel that sadness anymore?
sad. i know how you feel. but sad how i cant help. or how you won't let anyone help.
does the sound of my voice sadden you? do i make you feel down and plain emo?
cause if its like this. i regret making you feel this way.
you sometimes make me feel so down that i feel that i shouldn't even be talking to you. since i make you so very sad.
God. i don't know.
but what i do know is that i'm a normal healthy girl, with normal emotions.
is it selfish... to just ask that you'd think about how i feel first?
.....just sometimes? please? i really. really. really don't want to have to feel sad when it comes to you. so much crap with one. i don't want more crap with the other people important to me.
please? just talk to me, tell me whats wrong, let me help. please?
i know sometimes, i end up getting pretty affected by how you feel, when you DO tell me whats wrong.
But to me, its still better than having to guess whats wrong, better than hearing you lie to me , telling me you're alright when you clearly aren't.
please. nothing can be fixed, and you'll keep feeling this way if you don't open your mouth and tell me things from your heart.
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OKAYYYYY. i've ranted my fair share. i was down. but i won't let it keep me down. i want things to be better. and it wont happen unless i start doing things to change for the better.
Just. please. tell me, alright?
uhh.
yeahhhh.
uh, my seth damn cute. like, really, REALLY damnm cute.
was super sad just now, when i reached home.
(super awesome swim and stuffs with Boss.XD)
oh yea. was sad cause like, today some dude from singtel was supposed to come. from 2-4pm. my dad had earlier told me to stay home cause- uh.i dunno why either. But well..
i forgot.
and yeah, thats like taboo. i tried apologizing to both my parents on the phone. was super guilty that i forgot the whole thing. was super down when i reached home, tried to say sorry to my dad, when all he did was nod and 'shoo-ed' me away. well, i hope he was like that because he was watching something online. But still. i really, am sorry about the whole thing. i really didn't mean to forget. but he just looked at me like he didn't care anymore, like he was SO pissed off with me that he don't care anymore.
and that just made me sadder. ..
.... ohwells.
i know.
you've been thinking so much. it's pretty much my fault. i know how you think.
But sometimes i just wish that i didn't know.
me? can i be sad? i've been having so much crap from my parents, it's getting hard to ignore how negative it all makes me feel, you know? no, i don't think you do.
true, i know i fail at showing emotions. But. ARGH. Brick walls.
i'm sorry i fail.
sometimes, i wish i could sleep to forget it all too. but i know i'd hate that, cause thats no different from running away from things, even my own emotions.
But sometimes, sleep's allure is simply so strong, isn't it?
why do you sometimes seem like you're in such a rush to hang up? can i still trust you when you say things like 'i have to go...'?
or is it that you lie because you don't want to feel that sadness anymore?
sad. i know how you feel. but sad how i cant help. or how you won't let anyone help.
does the sound of my voice sadden you? do i make you feel down and plain emo?
cause if its like this. i regret making you feel this way.
you sometimes make me feel so down that i feel that i shouldn't even be talking to you. since i make you so very sad.
God. i don't know.
but what i do know is that i'm a normal healthy girl, with normal emotions.
is it selfish... to just ask that you'd think about how i feel first?
.....just sometimes? please? i really. really. really don't want to have to feel sad when it comes to you. so much crap with one. i don't want more crap with the other people important to me.
please? just talk to me, tell me whats wrong, let me help. please?
i know sometimes, i end up getting pretty affected by how you feel, when you DO tell me whats wrong.
But to me, its still better than having to guess whats wrong, better than hearing you lie to me , telling me you're alright when you clearly aren't.
please. nothing can be fixed, and you'll keep feeling this way if you don't open your mouth and tell me things from your heart.
--------------------------------------------------------------------
OKAYYYYY. i've ranted my fair share. i was down. but i won't let it keep me down. i want things to be better. and it wont happen unless i start doing things to change for the better.
Just. please. tell me, alright?
uhh.
yeahhhh.
uh, my seth damn cute. like, really, REALLY damnm cute.
was super sad just now, when i reached home.
(super awesome swim and stuffs with Boss.XD)
oh yea. was sad cause like, today some dude from singtel was supposed to come. from 2-4pm. my dad had earlier told me to stay home cause- uh.i dunno why either. But well..
i forgot.
and yeah, thats like taboo. i tried apologizing to both my parents on the phone. was super guilty that i forgot the whole thing. was super down when i reached home, tried to say sorry to my dad, when all he did was nod and 'shoo-ed' me away. well, i hope he was like that because he was watching something online. But still. i really, am sorry about the whole thing. i really didn't mean to forget. but he just looked at me like he didn't care anymore, like he was SO pissed off with me that he don't care anymore.
and that just made me sadder. ..
.... ohwells.