SP
i have a good concept.
but right now, i feel so bloody, fishing demoralized about the whole bloody animation and where its leading.
how unfair. i started early, normally have no problems animating. but. ah.
i feel so low about the whole bloody, fishing animation. like, it's gonna suck so bad.
i'm trying my best, to keep my own spirits up. i swear. i am.
i'm trying to muster up as much guts and spirit in myself to tell myself that if i work at it, it'll be alright.
i hate to wallow in self pity.
i hate to.
its the same again.
same as during the 'o's.
i read it myself again, in my own previous entry.
how i would always start going hyper before a paper,
my own way to run away from the fear of the exam by keeping myself upbeat.
and i fear that since im doing that whole bloody act again, that i wont do well.
i;m telling others, helping others, encouraging others when i clearly can't help save my own ass. how awesome.
fish it. feels like i'm going the bloody wrong way again. again.
i love the idea of the SP. its quite fun, the challenge.
but i hate losing my will, and being unable to pick myself up.
i re-did the bloody , fucking coin 3 times. (i really am sorry, but there seem to be no better word to explain my current frustration.)
and im barely 5 seconds.
you have no idea how bloody demoralizing it is every time i hear about someone's animation hitting 10 seconds.
and how frustrating it is to hear someone say their animation is crap when it clearly isn't.
how, plain, demoralized i am now. god. and i'm not even sure when i got this low. maybe it was all the stress and success stories around me.
but right now, i feel so bloody, fishing demoralized about the whole bloody animation and where its leading.
how unfair. i started early, normally have no problems animating. but. ah.
i feel so low about the whole bloody, fishing animation. like, it's gonna suck so bad.
i'm trying my best, to keep my own spirits up. i swear. i am.
i'm trying to muster up as much guts and spirit in myself to tell myself that if i work at it, it'll be alright.
i hate to wallow in self pity.
i hate to.
its the same again.
same as during the 'o's.
i read it myself again, in my own previous entry.
how i would always start going hyper before a paper,
my own way to run away from the fear of the exam by keeping myself upbeat.
and i fear that since im doing that whole bloody act again, that i wont do well.
i;m telling others, helping others, encouraging others when i clearly can't help save my own ass. how awesome.
fish it. feels like i'm going the bloody wrong way again. again.
i love the idea of the SP. its quite fun, the challenge.
but i hate losing my will, and being unable to pick myself up.
i re-did the bloody , fucking coin 3 times. (i really am sorry, but there seem to be no better word to explain my current frustration.)
and im barely 5 seconds.
you have no idea how bloody demoralizing it is every time i hear about someone's animation hitting 10 seconds.
and how frustrating it is to hear someone say their animation is crap when it clearly isn't.
how, plain, demoralized i am now. god. and i'm not even sure when i got this low. maybe it was all the stress and success stories around me.