Leaving so soon.
Well, it looks as if this Navy thing is going to work out after
all. I was starting to wonder since my recruiter didn't seem to
be doing his job. I have a new one, and things are moving along
quite well. When I was talking to her on the phone and scheduling
my physical, Sam was there. He seemed kinda surprised by that, as
if he thought that I was making it all up the whole time. I guess
hearing that conversation just solidified it for him that I was
actually leaving and joining the Navy for real. We were watching
TV and this song came on at the end of the show we were watching.
He was telling me about the band and that he liked them. He
looked up their website online and he pulled up these lyrics on the
internet, told me to read them and then left the room. We didn't
discuss it when he returned, but he did say a few minutes later that he
didn't do well with goodbyes. I'm really going to
miss him. He really is a good guy. He screws up, but he's
got a really great heart. I think I underestimated him in a lot
of ways that I won't go into detail on.
Artist : Snow Patrol
Title : Run
Album : Final Straw
Genre : Modern Rock
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dearWe're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
So we discussed where we were going to go from here with our relationship, and since he wouldn't tell me anything other than "Just be honest with me", which tells me nothing, I just told him we shouldn't make each other promises right now. We don't know how long it's going to be til we see each other again. And I reminded him of his one indiscretion when he fooled around with another girl. I live appx 500ft from him. How much more can I expect when I'm 500mi from him? So we're just going to keep in touch with each other, and try to take things casually from here on. I guess I'm just pessimistic, but I don't want to get hurt by him fooling around with another girl while I'm keeping myself for him. I'm still most likely not going to date because that's the way I am. To be with someone else right now would be a betrayal of myself. I really do love him, but I don't think I should be making one way promises when he's not going to promise me the same. So the arrangement is that, we'll keep in touch with each other through calls and letters, and if one of us (him) hooks up with someone else, we'll be honest with each other and not lead each other on. I think that's fair and reasonable. Not very romantic, but realistic, anyway.
After that, he told me he felt sick (he has pneumonia right now) and went to bed. I'm not sure if it was what I said or the multitude of pills and inhalers he has to start the day with, but he crawled in and didn't come back out. I just went home at that point. I downloaded the song on LIMEWIRE and I'm listening to it again and again and again... I know it's pathetic. Winter
Oh yeah, after I go back up North, I'm going to start a new LJ. I don't think this one is really going to be used anymore. I'll add those of you who want to be added. I'll post when it's up.
Ciao for now Peeps!
Artist : Snow Patrol
Title : Run
Album : Final Straw
Genre : Modern Rock
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dearWe're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
So we discussed where we were going to go from here with our relationship, and since he wouldn't tell me anything other than "Just be honest with me", which tells me nothing, I just told him we shouldn't make each other promises right now. We don't know how long it's going to be til we see each other again. And I reminded him of his one indiscretion when he fooled around with another girl. I live appx 500ft from him. How much more can I expect when I'm 500mi from him? So we're just going to keep in touch with each other, and try to take things casually from here on. I guess I'm just pessimistic, but I don't want to get hurt by him fooling around with another girl while I'm keeping myself for him. I'm still most likely not going to date because that's the way I am. To be with someone else right now would be a betrayal of myself. I really do love him, but I don't think I should be making one way promises when he's not going to promise me the same. So the arrangement is that, we'll keep in touch with each other through calls and letters, and if one of us (him) hooks up with someone else, we'll be honest with each other and not lead each other on. I think that's fair and reasonable. Not very romantic, but realistic, anyway.
After that, he told me he felt sick (he has pneumonia right now) and went to bed. I'm not sure if it was what I said or the multitude of pills and inhalers he has to start the day with, but he crawled in and didn't come back out. I just went home at that point. I downloaded the song on LIMEWIRE and I'm listening to it again and again and again... I know it's pathetic. Winter
Oh yeah, after I go back up North, I'm going to start a new LJ. I don't think this one is really going to be used anymore. I'll add those of you who want to be added. I'll post when it's up.
Ciao for now Peeps!