Gaaaaaaah!
I'm so stressed out and EMO right now! Between the delays in my enlistment process, the stupidity of the boyfriend, the lack of fundage right now and the non-medically-inclined mother, I'm a frazzled MESS! I've got to wind down somehow. Drinking isn't doing it. All that's doing is making it so I can close my eyes at night. I'm having issues meditating cause I can't get my brain to STFU for more than a sec at a time! I've even done the candle-lit bath with stinky bubbles and oils and everything! I'm just so wired out right now that I can't seem to think straight. *sigh* Okay, I'm gonna try to meditate again tonight. Maybe instead of trying to visualize something peaceful, I'll try to visualize basic training. At least that'll shut down the mental freak-out for a while... I hope...
Winter
Winter