Va te faire foutre, France
So, the reason i keep a live journal is for those moments when i have the hankering to share my thoughts with the rest of the world - usually - the more/most specific reason is that i like to complain and get sympathy.
Therefore - tonight i write about how unpleasant i have found it to be living in France this year.
i have now been here over 4 months.
which - leaves me with... oh i dunno... 153.5 days...
oh! that's only... a little thing called ... FIVE months.
I am SO sick of france. I am so sick of it all.
I hate my job. I dont like the other teachers because they ostracize me.
i dont like my moldy, spidery, noisy, carbon-monoxide-filled "living" area.
I dont like my students who misbehave and never learn.
I dont like eating.
i no longer like cooking
i no longer like cleaning.
if i werent for nathan, i really would refuse to eat.
i mean it.
i have so much to be thankful for - i know.
but i just keep sinking back into this unthankfulness.
im just so lonely.
nathan always makes me feel better. but i know he has work he should be doing.
and my sweet sister does her best to talk to me when she has time.
and mom tries too.
sigh.
everyone thinks their hardships are the worst.
sorry for complaining.
im going to attempt to be productive now that i have vented.
i still hate living in le havre, though.
and i hate being so needy.
mk
Therefore - tonight i write about how unpleasant i have found it to be living in France this year.
i have now been here over 4 months.
which - leaves me with... oh i dunno... 153.5 days...
oh! that's only... a little thing called ... FIVE months.
I am SO sick of france. I am so sick of it all.
I hate my job. I dont like the other teachers because they ostracize me.
i dont like my moldy, spidery, noisy, carbon-monoxide-filled "living" area.
I dont like my students who misbehave and never learn.
I dont like eating.
i no longer like cooking
i no longer like cleaning.
if i werent for nathan, i really would refuse to eat.
i mean it.
i have so much to be thankful for - i know.
but i just keep sinking back into this unthankfulness.
im just so lonely.
nathan always makes me feel better. but i know he has work he should be doing.
and my sweet sister does her best to talk to me when she has time.
and mom tries too.
sigh.
everyone thinks their hardships are the worst.
sorry for complaining.
im going to attempt to be productive now that i have vented.
i still hate living in le havre, though.
and i hate being so needy.
mk