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Art is wonderful because it lets you for a brief while escape into a different world. I suppose you could do that with many things but art has always been my escape. The colours can be used to create something beautiful in at least one persons eyes and in that moment it is all worth it. I can't say that on my own I've created anything magnificent but I find myself drawing or painting more and more lately. Hiding away to just get everything out. It's not just animals anymore either, though professionally I'm not sure it'll ever be anything but. I love to travel around and find them. There are always more to see, more to witness in their habitat and getting that kind of thing into a painting is brilliant. Traveling about is what I love to do and it's been so limited lately that I find myself almost lost without it. No matter where I go or what happens, besides Missy, my love for art is the constant in my life.
I rang Olly yesterday if only to hear him talk to me for a bit. We're both busy with our children so it isn't as if either of us are being put off by the other, but I couldn't see myself traveling round without him. Nothing I do would be complete that way and I do believe he's the reason it ever turns out as it does. We’re the both of us excited about the book and all, it’s nice to be able to have your work shared that way. Talking about things like that distract me enough away from other feelings and thoughts.
He asked me how I was and I can't say I was able to answer in complete honesty. I'm not sure how I am. It seems I've stopped worrying about that and it was scary actually. Where are you at if you're not thinking at all about yourself? I suppose it's sort of noble and all that but I think that at times you have to be a bit selfish as well. Ah well, so it goes.
I rang Olly yesterday if only to hear him talk to me for a bit. We're both busy with our children so it isn't as if either of us are being put off by the other, but I couldn't see myself traveling round without him. Nothing I do would be complete that way and I do believe he's the reason it ever turns out as it does. We’re the both of us excited about the book and all, it’s nice to be able to have your work shared that way. Talking about things like that distract me enough away from other feelings and thoughts.
He asked me how I was and I can't say I was able to answer in complete honesty. I'm not sure how I am. It seems I've stopped worrying about that and it was scary actually. Where are you at if you're not thinking at all about yourself? I suppose it's sort of noble and all that but I think that at times you have to be a bit selfish as well. Ah well, so it goes.