Be Strong.
Finally, I've have been pushed to the point where i no longer know myself. Crossing boundaries that I told myself i would never do, but things changed. These past couple weeks i've been going on some crazy adventure in my mind...and i'd always find myself lost or just stuck with the question...why. Why am I feeling this way? Why can't i snap out of it like any other problems i encountered? Why can't i make this go away like i used to? So many questions i have yet to figure out the answers to, just wish it was like simple before...guess not.
I see this person inside me always thinking, always worried something bad is going to happen, and always not satisfied. People tell me if i see it why can't i do something about it? Perhaps i don't have that kind of strength to change it, or i just have dealt with so much that it finally hit me all at once. I have felt miserable and just never in the mood to do anything, i know i'm choosing to NOT do it..but sometimes i just can't help myself. Someone told me to quit being sad and be happy for once. If i was able to snap out the feeling i will do it in a heartbeat. Its easier said then done, i tell everyone that. Also I realize that they aren't me...no one knows what i have truly put up with. Family, Friends, Life...no one knows, but i do try extremely hard to please people. Whether they appreciate it or not, to me i know i didn't fail.
Failure is not an option for me. I must keep my head up at all times and be the strong girl i once was. Somethings need to be changed and it'll happen one step at a time. This is going to be a new outlook for me.....
....until next time.
I see this person inside me always thinking, always worried something bad is going to happen, and always not satisfied. People tell me if i see it why can't i do something about it? Perhaps i don't have that kind of strength to change it, or i just have dealt with so much that it finally hit me all at once. I have felt miserable and just never in the mood to do anything, i know i'm choosing to NOT do it..but sometimes i just can't help myself. Someone told me to quit being sad and be happy for once. If i was able to snap out the feeling i will do it in a heartbeat. Its easier said then done, i tell everyone that. Also I realize that they aren't me...no one knows what i have truly put up with. Family, Friends, Life...no one knows, but i do try extremely hard to please people. Whether they appreciate it or not, to me i know i didn't fail.
Failure is not an option for me. I must keep my head up at all times and be the strong girl i once was. Somethings need to be changed and it'll happen one step at a time. This is going to be a new outlook for me.....
....until next time.