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I know I talk about this non-stop these days, but I am seriously going out of my mind having to live in this town with these people and this stupid routine. I was just looking at one bedroom apartments for rent on craigslist and it made me feel so anxious. of course the chances of me finding an apartment to rent on my own and which is affordable are slim, but I'm even considering moving out of my apartment and maybe living with mom and dad for a bit, if they would agree to it, because I need to save some money, and that is absolutely impossible while I am living here and just barely affording my rent. I have to get out of humboldt county soon. I am unable to feel happy or content here and I can't find comfort in any place, person or activity. I am actually going to choose and path and stay on it. this means I have to make some major changes to prepare for the ultimate change I am aiming for. I hate it here so much.