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I vowed yesterday to stop this. Stop feeling sad and sorry for myself, stop being lazy and tired and busy. It's really not worth losing my friends over and that's what I've done. The lack of contact is ridiculous and I'm making stupid excuses.
So I was home for thanksgiving and I just didn't make an effort to see any of you. Instead I saw his friends and his parents. It wasn't really a bad thing, I don't regret seeing those people, but I do definetely feel like shit for not seeing my own friends. I did the exact same thing this summer, except that really it was kind of unavoidable. The whole work thing and all.
I'm doing the same thing in Ottawa. All my talk about the tons of things that I'm doing and really my priorities are kind of backwards. It was made clear to me when someone told me that they usually plan get togethers around my scheduale. oh and when I say get togethers I mean stopping by my office in between classes.
God the guilt has most definetely set in. It's you guys who are going to last and stick around, not some silly job. What's the point of being in school so that you can get a job when you lose all your friends in the process? Honestly, what are you going to do on the weekends?
So it's time to make up for it. This weekend I am going to make a few phone calls to the people in residence and this winterbreak I am going to change things with the people in Toronto, if that's okay with everyone...
So I was home for thanksgiving and I just didn't make an effort to see any of you. Instead I saw his friends and his parents. It wasn't really a bad thing, I don't regret seeing those people, but I do definetely feel like shit for not seeing my own friends. I did the exact same thing this summer, except that really it was kind of unavoidable. The whole work thing and all.
I'm doing the same thing in Ottawa. All my talk about the tons of things that I'm doing and really my priorities are kind of backwards. It was made clear to me when someone told me that they usually plan get togethers around my scheduale. oh and when I say get togethers I mean stopping by my office in between classes.
God the guilt has most definetely set in. It's you guys who are going to last and stick around, not some silly job. What's the point of being in school so that you can get a job when you lose all your friends in the process? Honestly, what are you going to do on the weekends?
So it's time to make up for it. This weekend I am going to make a few phone calls to the people in residence and this winterbreak I am going to change things with the people in Toronto, if that's okay with everyone...