ARG.
I've officially been a good, non-smelly kid for a whole month now. Feels nice.
I don't know what I want. I feel so.... two-faced? Bitter? Ugly? Stupid? Melancholy?
Yes, that's it: I feel melancholy.
I bought two new pairs of shoes yesterday and a new notebook; that should make everything "all better," but I think I need a bigger band-aid for this wound.
Have you ever seen/read The Shining? You know how the little boy goes into the maze garden and gets trapped and almost dies? (Or does he die??? I can't remember....) Well, I feel like that. Like I'm in a never-ending maze, in the middle of a New-England winter...and I'm being chased by giant topiary dogs.
It's quite scary.
On a lighter note- I'm gonna be able to keep all my scholarships for next year! I calculated it, and even if all my grades dropped ten points- I'd still have a 3.5. HURRAY!
Summer will be lovely.
Tomorrow night is Haste the Day and Across 5 Aprils (my two favorite bands) at Swayze's. But I really wanna go to church.... what to do? What to do?
I don't know what I want. I feel so.... two-faced? Bitter? Ugly? Stupid? Melancholy?
Yes, that's it: I feel melancholy.
I bought two new pairs of shoes yesterday and a new notebook; that should make everything "all better," but I think I need a bigger band-aid for this wound.
Have you ever seen/read The Shining? You know how the little boy goes into the maze garden and gets trapped and almost dies? (Or does he die??? I can't remember....) Well, I feel like that. Like I'm in a never-ending maze, in the middle of a New-England winter...and I'm being chased by giant topiary dogs.
It's quite scary.
On a lighter note- I'm gonna be able to keep all my scholarships for next year! I calculated it, and even if all my grades dropped ten points- I'd still have a 3.5. HURRAY!
Summer will be lovely.
Tomorrow night is Haste the Day and Across 5 Aprils (my two favorite bands) at Swayze's. But I really wanna go to church.... what to do? What to do?