Sep 13, 2006 21:51
I was in class today (placement class, that is) and I got this ridiculous deja vu. Now, this is not quite out of the ordinary, as I tend to have these sorts of flashbacks often. But it got me thinking.
I remembered that when I was in grade 10 Jen Quigley (friend from home)'s mom told me that she believes deja vus are are a part of God's plan. I am not a religious person by any means, but bear with me here. She told me that when we are created God (or at least some higher being) decides a special plan for us and in this plan are these sorts of checking-in points, kind of like a map. These checking-in points are little signs to tell us that we are following our plan as has been pre-destined . So when we have a deja vu, it is a way of knowing that this plan has been set into place for us and we are simply following our path.
I honestly don't believe in pre-destined fates; I completely think that I have control over my future and the choices I make today directly affect the person I will be ten years from now. But because I have gone through a lot of self-reflecting the past two years about whether teaching is the job for me, having this deja vu today kind of made me think that perhaps I am taking things way too seriously and that I should just let what will happen, happen.
And it's true, you know? I know I am not going to quit con-ed (mostly because what if I do decide to teach, then it would be a bitch to try to get into Teacher's College) and so I might as well just ride out the two more years I have of this program.
Something to think about anyway.
T/