Yuck!
It's so disgustingly hot and sticky lately. I'm just trying to pack up my stuff, and it's so gross I can't stand it!
Getting ready for vacation now, we'll be leaving on the 23rd and not coming back until the 1st. Such a long time. But I can't wait to be away from work. God I hate that place so much lately.
Well, I don't know what to think anymore, things are really pissing me off. I am soo excited about moving in with my friend, but I don't think she is anymore. She says she is, and she'll be mad at me for still thinking otherwise, actually probably more mad at herself for feeling that way but I don't know.
I can't read anyone's feelings correctly. I think I'm doing things right, but I'm not getting the feedback to indicate that I am. I want to hang out and talk like we used to, but I feel like no one wants to. Like I'm being alienated, and made fun of behind my back. I feel like people don't really care. I hate the lack of determination. It's like Hello, you can do it if you keep trying to do it. Yea there will be ups and downs, but YOU'LL PULL THROUGH!!!
I wish I could just spend half my vacation packing things up, but no. I will have no time at all to pack during vacation. I wish it would just get cold enough so we don't feel like we're going to die every time we step out of air conditioning.
I have a lot of things to buy, I don't know what to do. I feel like if my friend is having so many problems with the finance issues she should just forget the idea. I don't know. see I'm like keep trying, be strong, but then I am tired of seeing people suffer so I just don't know. It pisses me off. I'm just like don't tell me I don't know what it means to have these big bills. I do too. I've lived my whole life that way. I'm never had a luxury, I live in a TRAILER for crying out loud. I wasn't able to have much when I was young. And now my parents continue to struggle. It fucking sucks, but I've learned how to deal with it. I've been able to make every bill payment on time. I've never missed any payments, I don't know why people think I have creditors up my ass because I've decided to consolodate my debt. I just did that cuz I didn't want to have 39 different bills every month. I have no reason other than that. The only debt I have is from college. And yes I am including my credit cards, because most of that debt is my car (from driving to and from school), my musical instruments, my books, clothes, and gas and food. All things I needed to get through college. And even though I didn't go to an expensive school, I still have the debt. I didn't get much aid at all because ASS-A-Chusetts sucks. I started to get aid when I was senior but by then I already had the 4 years.
People think I don't know how to manage my money, I do too. If I have something to save for, I will. The reasons I'm not married yet are not because of finances. I mean that has something to do with it but that's not THE reason.
I am just so sick of having to buy new clothes because none of my clothes fit me, this is why I have no money, I'm too fat for my clothes.....I know there are people out there who can relate. Getting a different job is hard, I've been sending my resume out for months and getting nothing, not even an interview. I had one lousy interview and still nothing. So All of you out there SCREW YOU for telling me I'm not trying. I AM TOO TRYING!! IT's sooooooo discouraging after a year of job searching.
Ok sorry...I am just so frustrated with people who think they have all the answers. It's not as easy as you think it is out there. I guess I just suck and that's why I can't get another job. The job I have is great because the hours are so flexable and the boss is so nice. Even thought I don't get paid like anything at all. I'd have to get a second job at night in order to keep up, I am trying to see if priceright is hiring or blockbuster. anything like that. but I have to wait, cuz I'm on vacation next week and won't be on this side of the country.
I'm feeling slighted like I'm not being included because people think I can't handle my money, Yeah there's a lot of things I'd love to have, but I know I can't afford them. I'm fine with that. I also hate people that think that whatever they are doing right now is all they will become, how the hell do they know that? They are all young, and have tons a space to grow, but nooooooo they'd rather complain that they'll never amount to anything, rather than just accepting the fact that it takes TIME to amount to something. So what if there are people out there who got it right away...they are NOT like everyone.
If anyone knows it takes time to do anything, it's me, I've only been engaged for 5 years on the 7th. Hello? can we say hurry up and wait?
I know waiting sucks but sometimes if you rush forward, you will find you are going backwards. just look at the growing number of divorced marriages in the world. I'm a firm believer that sometimes you have to let life take you with it, instead of you leading your life onward. If it was meant to happen it will, it just might take a while. I feel like I have to ruch to keep the world satisfied, but nothing is coming my way and it's taking a little time, but that's not good enough for those who sit back and judge the way I live my life. Patience is a virtue, it's the truth and that's no cliche.
Getting ready for vacation now, we'll be leaving on the 23rd and not coming back until the 1st. Such a long time. But I can't wait to be away from work. God I hate that place so much lately.
Well, I don't know what to think anymore, things are really pissing me off. I am soo excited about moving in with my friend, but I don't think she is anymore. She says she is, and she'll be mad at me for still thinking otherwise, actually probably more mad at herself for feeling that way but I don't know.
I can't read anyone's feelings correctly. I think I'm doing things right, but I'm not getting the feedback to indicate that I am. I want to hang out and talk like we used to, but I feel like no one wants to. Like I'm being alienated, and made fun of behind my back. I feel like people don't really care. I hate the lack of determination. It's like Hello, you can do it if you keep trying to do it. Yea there will be ups and downs, but YOU'LL PULL THROUGH!!!
I wish I could just spend half my vacation packing things up, but no. I will have no time at all to pack during vacation. I wish it would just get cold enough so we don't feel like we're going to die every time we step out of air conditioning.
I have a lot of things to buy, I don't know what to do. I feel like if my friend is having so many problems with the finance issues she should just forget the idea. I don't know. see I'm like keep trying, be strong, but then I am tired of seeing people suffer so I just don't know. It pisses me off. I'm just like don't tell me I don't know what it means to have these big bills. I do too. I've lived my whole life that way. I'm never had a luxury, I live in a TRAILER for crying out loud. I wasn't able to have much when I was young. And now my parents continue to struggle. It fucking sucks, but I've learned how to deal with it. I've been able to make every bill payment on time. I've never missed any payments, I don't know why people think I have creditors up my ass because I've decided to consolodate my debt. I just did that cuz I didn't want to have 39 different bills every month. I have no reason other than that. The only debt I have is from college. And yes I am including my credit cards, because most of that debt is my car (from driving to and from school), my musical instruments, my books, clothes, and gas and food. All things I needed to get through college. And even though I didn't go to an expensive school, I still have the debt. I didn't get much aid at all because ASS-A-Chusetts sucks. I started to get aid when I was senior but by then I already had the 4 years.
People think I don't know how to manage my money, I do too. If I have something to save for, I will. The reasons I'm not married yet are not because of finances. I mean that has something to do with it but that's not THE reason.
I am just so sick of having to buy new clothes because none of my clothes fit me, this is why I have no money, I'm too fat for my clothes.....I know there are people out there who can relate. Getting a different job is hard, I've been sending my resume out for months and getting nothing, not even an interview. I had one lousy interview and still nothing. So All of you out there SCREW YOU for telling me I'm not trying. I AM TOO TRYING!! IT's sooooooo discouraging after a year of job searching.
Ok sorry...I am just so frustrated with people who think they have all the answers. It's not as easy as you think it is out there. I guess I just suck and that's why I can't get another job. The job I have is great because the hours are so flexable and the boss is so nice. Even thought I don't get paid like anything at all. I'd have to get a second job at night in order to keep up, I am trying to see if priceright is hiring or blockbuster. anything like that. but I have to wait, cuz I'm on vacation next week and won't be on this side of the country.
I'm feeling slighted like I'm not being included because people think I can't handle my money, Yeah there's a lot of things I'd love to have, but I know I can't afford them. I'm fine with that. I also hate people that think that whatever they are doing right now is all they will become, how the hell do they know that? They are all young, and have tons a space to grow, but nooooooo they'd rather complain that they'll never amount to anything, rather than just accepting the fact that it takes TIME to amount to something. So what if there are people out there who got it right away...they are NOT like everyone.
If anyone knows it takes time to do anything, it's me, I've only been engaged for 5 years on the 7th. Hello? can we say hurry up and wait?
I know waiting sucks but sometimes if you rush forward, you will find you are going backwards. just look at the growing number of divorced marriages in the world. I'm a firm believer that sometimes you have to let life take you with it, instead of you leading your life onward. If it was meant to happen it will, it just might take a while. I feel like I have to ruch to keep the world satisfied, but nothing is coming my way and it's taking a little time, but that's not good enough for those who sit back and judge the way I live my life. Patience is a virtue, it's the truth and that's no cliche.