and so hold on when there is nothing in you
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If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream---and not make dreams your master;
If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son!
~ "If" by Rudyard Kipling
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if if if... that totally fits my thesis-life right now, since my thesis is due tomorrow.
right. so. pretty much all i have to say right now is that i'm having worse mood swings over my thesis than i've ever gotten from PMS. >_<
the problem here -- or at any rate, the main problem -- is that i overthink things far too much normally, and this whole thesis thing is so much scarier than normal papers that i think my overthinking might cause my brain to implode or some other such unpleasantness.
must. stop. thinking. about. the. thesis......
omg. one week from right NOW, i will be completely done with my thesis and will never have to think about it again if i don't want to. and 3 weeks from right now i will have left Bryn Mawr with a B.A. in Comparative Literature. o.o;;
oh. 24-hour computing started today. so i signed up to work all night on Friday. actually, it's Saturday morning, midnight to 8am. because i am insane. =P but y'all already knew this. that's the only extra shift i've signed up for so far. but i'm sure i'll sign up for more...
*happy "break a leg" thoughts to Jennie and her fellow actors tonight* and *huggles for PHUT!*