This is the life~ (or something)
Why must some things be so hard? Especially getting started.
I do believe that once I actually start something and get going, I can manage and I won't fail. But the beginning is so very hard and it's not getting easier from being put of.
The thing is, pretty much every time I tried something, I actually succeeded. I mean, not every time, but when it counted. I lose points for laziness, but usually not for skill. I can do stuff. Once I'm motivated I can be incredibly productive.
However: when I'm not motivated, I'm very, very easily distracted. It's one of my major weaknesses that I'm aware of. Paired with an insane ability to repress things I don't want to think about, it's like a monster inside of me that drags me down. I'm fighting it every day and count every victory, even the small ones.
Everything is gonna be fine. <= that's something I actually believe.
When you do good, it's gonna come back to you one way or another. <= it's like karma.
<3
I do believe that once I actually start something and get going, I can manage and I won't fail. But the beginning is so very hard and it's not getting easier from being put of.
The thing is, pretty much every time I tried something, I actually succeeded. I mean, not every time, but when it counted. I lose points for laziness, but usually not for skill. I can do stuff. Once I'm motivated I can be incredibly productive.
However: when I'm not motivated, I'm very, very easily distracted. It's one of my major weaknesses that I'm aware of. Paired with an insane ability to repress things I don't want to think about, it's like a monster inside of me that drags me down. I'm fighting it every day and count every victory, even the small ones.
Everything is gonna be fine. <= that's something I actually believe.
When you do good, it's gonna come back to you one way or another. <= it's like karma.
<3