ANGST
Life isn't so great...
I dunno what to think at this moment. I feel somewhat annoyed at most people now. I think mostly because I've been hearing a lot more complaining and bullshit from people's mouths than words worth hearing. I can't live out one week without hearing someone get into some problems. I can't even live out one week without hearing either my parents, friends downstairs, or next door neighbors getting into a fight (the couple's kind of fights). I'm sick of fights. I feel that this is my only reason that I can't seem to bring myself to have a girlfriend.
You know what I hate to hear from people more than anything? It's when people tell me that all couples will get into a fight once in a while. I especially hate it when they tell me that it's all a part of the healthy relationship. To those who actually believe in that, I say FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!! I can agree that there will be disagreements in a relationship. I DON'T agree that couples who get into shouting matches and fights is normal. That shit is so lame. I can't believe that there are relationships in this world that exist that has couples getting into heated fights day after day or month after month, even.
It also is sad to see a couple not do shit. I mean, I know couples that don't get out at all. Sometimes it could be tough, but I'm sure two people can squeeze enough time to get out of the normal routine and go somewhere.
I'm just really frustrated...
I think I should just move out. I don't care if it's a studio apartment or something, I just need to get away from everyone... especially the family.
I think what made me think about this more is when my uncle asked me if I was happy where I'm at in life. I thought he meant career-wise or happy I'm back in school. Of course I'm happy with that, but he really meant about where I'm staying. He knows that I don't come out for the parties that happen in the house. It's not that I don't want to be around them, I just don't feel it necessary to mingle with my family. Besides, I'm not into throwing house parties. I'm an outgoing person, and I'd rather go out to have a good time.
I just can't stand it, anymore. People coming in and taking advantage of our hospitality is fucking pissing me off. I think I'll start looking after the car is paid off. As much as I'd like to keep helping my family with paying rent, I think it's worth it if I got out of this house.
I need to sleep this off...
I dunno what to think at this moment. I feel somewhat annoyed at most people now. I think mostly because I've been hearing a lot more complaining and bullshit from people's mouths than words worth hearing. I can't live out one week without hearing someone get into some problems. I can't even live out one week without hearing either my parents, friends downstairs, or next door neighbors getting into a fight (the couple's kind of fights). I'm sick of fights. I feel that this is my only reason that I can't seem to bring myself to have a girlfriend.
You know what I hate to hear from people more than anything? It's when people tell me that all couples will get into a fight once in a while. I especially hate it when they tell me that it's all a part of the healthy relationship. To those who actually believe in that, I say FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!! I can agree that there will be disagreements in a relationship. I DON'T agree that couples who get into shouting matches and fights is normal. That shit is so lame. I can't believe that there are relationships in this world that exist that has couples getting into heated fights day after day or month after month, even.
It also is sad to see a couple not do shit. I mean, I know couples that don't get out at all. Sometimes it could be tough, but I'm sure two people can squeeze enough time to get out of the normal routine and go somewhere.
I'm just really frustrated...
I think I should just move out. I don't care if it's a studio apartment or something, I just need to get away from everyone... especially the family.
I think what made me think about this more is when my uncle asked me if I was happy where I'm at in life. I thought he meant career-wise or happy I'm back in school. Of course I'm happy with that, but he really meant about where I'm staying. He knows that I don't come out for the parties that happen in the house. It's not that I don't want to be around them, I just don't feel it necessary to mingle with my family. Besides, I'm not into throwing house parties. I'm an outgoing person, and I'd rather go out to have a good time.
I just can't stand it, anymore. People coming in and taking advantage of our hospitality is fucking pissing me off. I think I'll start looking after the car is paid off. As much as I'd like to keep helping my family with paying rent, I think it's worth it if I got out of this house.
I need to sleep this off...