a really bad year
Inspired by Stacy's xanga entry I just read, because I'm terrible at keeping up with other people's entries and finally read through them... I've been holding so much stuff in and it's been eating at me, that I finally decided it's time to just let go. And let some of it out.
This last year was pretty hard on me, and I'm not going to share everything, but here's the highlights, or lowlights.
-I had nightmares every single night replaying my grandpa's death
-My dad got prostate cancer
-I had nightmares every night of my dad dying in different ways
-I injured my knee at work in April, a big piece of machinery fell on it and I still can't bend it all the way
-I've had more people tell me what I can't do or can't succeed at than any year before
-A good friend of ours almost died out of nowhere, the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong and he spent almost 2 months in ICU where he was expected to die any day
-My great aunt fell in the shower, broke her spine, and was stuck there for almost 2 days straight before anyone knew what happened (She lives alone but her daughter calls her once a day)
-I worked so much I lost contact with all my friends, which should never happen
-I fell very far away from God
-I had the worst break-up ever
-I got laid off from my job because the place closed down
-My grandma's dying
-I lost one of the best friends I've ever had
-I've been so apathetic the last 5 months that I honestly haven't cared about my life or my future at all
-I decided I'm going back to school in the fall (the state's paying for it because we lost our jobs to another country)
-A good friend's sister died last month
-At a family get-together, people were taking pictures of the "couples", and people actually forgot about taking a picture of me because I was sitting off by myself (imagine how great that feels)
-My family keeps telling me that something I decided to do and WANT to do (Dental Hygiene) is a bad decision, and that I should just work in a factory type place for the rest of my life... figure that one out
-Found out there's a huge waiting list to get into Dental Hygiene at MATC, which is where I'm going... so now I don't even know if the state will pay for my schooling by the time I could get in
A few other bad things happened that I'm not ready to talk about. I can only let go of so much at a time, and deal with the rest on my own by holding it in, which is what I always do, even though it's terrible to do that. But this is a start at least.
This last year was pretty hard on me, and I'm not going to share everything, but here's the highlights, or lowlights.
-I had nightmares every single night replaying my grandpa's death
-My dad got prostate cancer
-I had nightmares every night of my dad dying in different ways
-I injured my knee at work in April, a big piece of machinery fell on it and I still can't bend it all the way
-I've had more people tell me what I can't do or can't succeed at than any year before
-A good friend of ours almost died out of nowhere, the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong and he spent almost 2 months in ICU where he was expected to die any day
-My great aunt fell in the shower, broke her spine, and was stuck there for almost 2 days straight before anyone knew what happened (She lives alone but her daughter calls her once a day)
-I worked so much I lost contact with all my friends, which should never happen
-I fell very far away from God
-I had the worst break-up ever
-I got laid off from my job because the place closed down
-My grandma's dying
-I lost one of the best friends I've ever had
-I've been so apathetic the last 5 months that I honestly haven't cared about my life or my future at all
-I decided I'm going back to school in the fall (the state's paying for it because we lost our jobs to another country)
-A good friend's sister died last month
-At a family get-together, people were taking pictures of the "couples", and people actually forgot about taking a picture of me because I was sitting off by myself (imagine how great that feels)
-My family keeps telling me that something I decided to do and WANT to do (Dental Hygiene) is a bad decision, and that I should just work in a factory type place for the rest of my life... figure that one out
-Found out there's a huge waiting list to get into Dental Hygiene at MATC, which is where I'm going... so now I don't even know if the state will pay for my schooling by the time I could get in
A few other bad things happened that I'm not ready to talk about. I can only let go of so much at a time, and deal with the rest on my own by holding it in, which is what I always do, even though it's terrible to do that. But this is a start at least.