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Hey a meme
Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, favourite type of underwear, etc.
...what do I do with out 'Shirou...
I miss him- I missed when I went away and now he's gone and it's lonely. I messed everything up again. I just don't want to be me anymore. I want to believe in him the way he believes in me and I want to able to say I love him and really believe it will mean something.
The guys downstairs offered to sell me more or new stuff. I haven't touched anything since that day but...it so easy. All this goes away and everything is so much better and there's this little voice telling me that maybe this is what will make him go away. He stays when I fuck around and he stays when I disappear, but what about this, will he still be here if I fall this far.
I can't. I wasn't gonna do this to Miyuki, and Shinji. I promised him-but my chest hurts it's tight and painful and I know what to take to make it better at least for a little. I want to...and the real stuff...I want to feel as good as I did when I was 14 cause that's how bad this feels. And I know exactly how.
Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, favourite type of underwear, etc.
...what do I do with out 'Shirou...
I miss him- I missed when I went away and now he's gone and it's lonely. I messed everything up again. I just don't want to be me anymore. I want to believe in him the way he believes in me and I want to able to say I love him and really believe it will mean something.
The guys downstairs offered to sell me more or new stuff. I haven't touched anything since that day but...it so easy. All this goes away and everything is so much better and there's this little voice telling me that maybe this is what will make him go away. He stays when I fuck around and he stays when I disappear, but what about this, will he still be here if I fall this far.
I can't. I wasn't gonna do this to Miyuki, and Shinji. I promised him-but my chest hurts it's tight and painful and I know what to take to make it better at least for a little. I want to...and the real stuff...I want to feel as good as I did when I was 14 cause that's how bad this feels. And I know exactly how.