im outside of ur window, with my radio

[wingofrenzy]

ughhhhhh, i cant fuckin even carry a conversation with my parents without them getting mad at me and yelling at me. i really dont know the last time i was able to sit and talk with my mom. or the last time i spent a day with my whole family where it was pleasant. theres not one day where im being yelled at or yelling at one of my parents. i know its normal to fight with your parents. but its not normal fighting. and i wanna be nice sooo bad, but i just cant. its like im so nice to everyone else and never let my aggression out on my friends or anything like that, and its just easier to let it out on my parents. and then they take it the wrong way and they have this whole view on me of how im just so rude and they expect me to react in negative ways to everything. and i hate when im nice my mom cause she tries and soaks it up and takes it too far.

and now im crying so much cause i cant keep my mouth shut when my mom talks to me.

ugh depressed chloe is just the best ever! not.

i seriously could go through all the things right now that make my life so shitty. but i feel stupid caus ei know people out there have it worse and i dont want sympathy.. i just want it to all get better. the people who have it easy can suck it. ha.
i needa best friend, a sister, a family, a guy. right now i have nothing

im gonna shut up now cause i feel like those stupid whinney pathetic people who slit their wrists for attention.. not me, nor will it ever be me.

i just needa cry it out and remind myself to make the best of things.. just keep in mind grace is passing by us everyday