ughhhhh
i was happy cause i finally got my SOCAPA films, and ive been super excited to show them to my family.. but of course they suck and the one film i was ready to show my family doesnt work and wont work.. and ugh i dont even know it didnt seem like my sister even cared taht much.. and i know its not a big deal but she really doesnt even care about me anymore. she barely hangs out with me nnymore and when i try to do something with her shes just blah. i mean we were cool at the spill canvas concert which by the way was effing awesome, and all the other bands we were really cool and minus the shitass crowd who talked durin his set it was really really good. and i saw that girl i see at every freakin show. and we chatted for a bit. she seems like a cool gal..
speaking of, i seriously need more friends that are girls. like 3 other girls that im friends with only come to mind. like i have other friends that are girls but i wouldnt hang out with them really, nor would they really wanna hang out with me.. i dont think? i dont know. but i never have anything to do. and when i do have things to do i do it wiht guys and most things- like shopping and such- are so much easier with girls.. dont get me wrong i loooooove my guy friends (well most my friends are guys) but still, its annoyin that i cant do thing sbecause i dont ahve the people there for me to do it with. like seriously people make the difference of making something fun.
i couldnt go to punta cana this summer cause i couldnt get anyone to go with me, and now its really fuckin lookin like i cant go to california the one place i constantly want to be, because i cant gget anyone to go with me. UGH.. its so fuckin annoying i cant even express it to u. even mimi cant cause shes gonna be at college, or movin in at that time. and i really dont know who else i have besides my 'best friend' sam.. who really isnt much of a best friend anymore seeing how we barely hang out, barely talk. barely anything. but shes the only one i have.. and then i have 2 other friends but theyre best friends with each other so its hard to have them there. it seems like i used to have sooooooooooo many other friends and i really dont know what happened. actually i kinda do, pepole changed for the worse and i didnt change wiht them. ughh im just so annoyed. with everything.
i went for a walk today and met nick and shawn and brandon. my eye was killin me, i felt like shit, i looked like butt and i really needed to shower. hahah so we walked a little and it was too hot so i went home to lay down. i wanna go to the beach, but more importantly get me some BK. but im too fed up to eat right now. blahhhhhhhhhhhh
ieehgbwuiybweioghnbwhgn suck it.
speaking of, i seriously need more friends that are girls. like 3 other girls that im friends with only come to mind. like i have other friends that are girls but i wouldnt hang out with them really, nor would they really wanna hang out with me.. i dont think? i dont know. but i never have anything to do. and when i do have things to do i do it wiht guys and most things- like shopping and such- are so much easier with girls.. dont get me wrong i loooooove my guy friends (well most my friends are guys) but still, its annoyin that i cant do thing sbecause i dont ahve the people there for me to do it with. like seriously people make the difference of making something fun.
i couldnt go to punta cana this summer cause i couldnt get anyone to go with me, and now its really fuckin lookin like i cant go to california the one place i constantly want to be, because i cant gget anyone to go with me. UGH.. its so fuckin annoying i cant even express it to u. even mimi cant cause shes gonna be at college, or movin in at that time. and i really dont know who else i have besides my 'best friend' sam.. who really isnt much of a best friend anymore seeing how we barely hang out, barely talk. barely anything. but shes the only one i have.. and then i have 2 other friends but theyre best friends with each other so its hard to have them there. it seems like i used to have sooooooooooo many other friends and i really dont know what happened. actually i kinda do, pepole changed for the worse and i didnt change wiht them. ughh im just so annoyed. with everything.
i went for a walk today and met nick and shawn and brandon. my eye was killin me, i felt like shit, i looked like butt and i really needed to shower. hahah so we walked a little and it was too hot so i went home to lay down. i wanna go to the beach, but more importantly get me some BK. but im too fed up to eat right now. blahhhhhhhhhhhh
ieehgbwuiybweioghnbwhgn suck it.