i want so badly to believe
If you want to know my mood right now, listen to Clark Gable by The Postal Service.
...Why can't I just do it?
Is it because I feel like it is hopeless to even try?
Ya, I think that's actually why.
But I don't want to think that way.
It is because of all that has happened.
But that is the past, I am over it.
Am I?
I would think not seeing that whenever it comes up I just back away scared.
I can stop that though. I really can.
And I will.
...Why can't I just do it?
Is it because I feel like it is hopeless to even try?
Ya, I think that's actually why.
But I don't want to think that way.
It is because of all that has happened.
But that is the past, I am over it.
Am I?
I would think not seeing that whenever it comes up I just back away scared.
I can stop that though. I really can.
And I will.