Yay, I get THREE icons!
Okay, the JCCC coffee shop is playing smooth jazz/piano renditions of REM songs... It's only a little bit wrong.
I wanted to post something last night before going to bed, but it was just waaay too late. And honestly I don't really even know what all I'm thinking or feeling right now, let alone how to articulate any of it... I do know though that the last few days have been some of the best for me in a long time, and I'm really excited to see how things unfold.
Some people are naturally self-sufficient, emotionally speaking. Living alone is a real trial in that I am not one of those people (although I am learning, however slowly and painfully). It's always been especially easy for me to become lonely and sink into despondancy. I wallow in self pity that no one cares about me on a truly personal level, that I don't have much of a meaningful "connection" with anyone. I despair that I have no "true" friends, just an assortment of long-standing, "casual" friends and glorified aquaintances. I must be very boring, or socially inept, or simply unable to locate kindred spirits, OR so high-miantenance I might as well give up on ever meeting the rare individual who understands my needs and can fill them. Oh, woe is me! I realize I've been teetering precariously on the verge of re-visiting that situation for quite a while now...
Point being! It is a relief to finally be reminded, just in the nick of time, that none of those things are actually true, no matter how low I may sink again (which, I know I will eventually). There's always somebody precious out there that God or karma or whatever Powers-that-may-be are waiting to drop in your lap...
What? That post got real serious real fast... I swear I had every intention of keeping it light and happy! Oh, well...
I can't wait for school to be over!
I wanted to post something last night before going to bed, but it was just waaay too late. And honestly I don't really even know what all I'm thinking or feeling right now, let alone how to articulate any of it... I do know though that the last few days have been some of the best for me in a long time, and I'm really excited to see how things unfold.
Some people are naturally self-sufficient, emotionally speaking. Living alone is a real trial in that I am not one of those people (although I am learning, however slowly and painfully). It's always been especially easy for me to become lonely and sink into despondancy. I wallow in self pity that no one cares about me on a truly personal level, that I don't have much of a meaningful "connection" with anyone. I despair that I have no "true" friends, just an assortment of long-standing, "casual" friends and glorified aquaintances. I must be very boring, or socially inept, or simply unable to locate kindred spirits, OR so high-miantenance I might as well give up on ever meeting the rare individual who understands my needs and can fill them. Oh, woe is me! I realize I've been teetering precariously on the verge of re-visiting that situation for quite a while now...
Point being! It is a relief to finally be reminded, just in the nick of time, that none of those things are actually true, no matter how low I may sink again (which, I know I will eventually). There's always somebody precious out there that God or karma or whatever Powers-that-may-be are waiting to drop in your lap...
What? That post got real serious real fast... I swear I had every intention of keeping it light and happy! Oh, well...
I can't wait for school to be over!