Turning corners
I guess today marks me trying for a new beginning. Whether it works and whether I stick to it is anybody's guess.
I've come to the following conclusions from the last month or so:
1. At the current rate I'll fail my AS levels. Not good. I need those to:
a. Go back next year to do A2 courses
b. Get the required UCAS points to get into a half-decent university
2. I'm far too busy for my own good. I need to cut down on the amount of projects I'm involved in so I can concentrate on schoolwork (for the next month or so) then paid work over the summer.
3. I'm lonely.
Of course, not everything above is easily remedied, but some are easier than others.
In the last month I've worked harder than I've ever worked before (no kidding). I've got my media grade from D/E to B/C. That's good. My IT grade has come from U to C/D. My Eng. Lit. grade has sort of hovered around A/B, and tbh that's enough for me. ;)
As long as I come out of this year with 100 points or more, I'm not too bothered. Below that, it's not worth going back.
I've decided to cut down on my involvement in quite a lot of stuff online & offline. In the last month:
1. The Carefurs has gone from 'existing' to 'on hiatus because no-one except me appears to care'.
2. As soon as the database is moved and running from it's new location, I will no longer be a contributor to the 9Kingdoms MUCK group. I've thought this over long and hard, and I've decided to leave for more than one reason, but I'll cover those in more depth in a minute.
3. I've lowered the amount of involvement I have in certain projects outside of the internet so I can concentrate on other, paid projects.
Now, reasons for leaving the 9Kingdoms.
It seems that whatever I did, or tried to do, there would always be a detractor. I know it happens to us all, but it's not nice. I won't even get into what someone accused me of being.
I don't have the time.
I can't guarantee total stability on the servers yet.
So, I've left it entirely. I may return in a few years to have a poke around the MUCKs, see what the place has become, but for now, I shall have no more involvement in it.
Third one now ... I've moved away from things such as Silverfang for now, as I'm stupendously busy preparing to take on surplus work from a local web developer. TBH I'm glad of the extra income.
Okay. Loneliness. I think I have someone. I don't know. I may or may not have them ... I don't know how things stand right now. Even if I do have them though, they're still a long way away from me... this is the hardest thing to do something about. If I *knew* things would work out, and I could afford it, I'd leave. Now. I'd be over there in a second. I hate to say it, but I don't know that things will work. I desperately want them to, don't misunderstand, but nothing is certain in life. I'm only 50% of the equation.
As of this post, I'm making a huge effort to try and change my ways. Only time will tell if I succeed.
Anyway, hm. First real post in a while. Comments?
I've come to the following conclusions from the last month or so:
1. At the current rate I'll fail my AS levels. Not good. I need those to:
a. Go back next year to do A2 courses
b. Get the required UCAS points to get into a half-decent university
2. I'm far too busy for my own good. I need to cut down on the amount of projects I'm involved in so I can concentrate on schoolwork (for the next month or so) then paid work over the summer.
3. I'm lonely.
Of course, not everything above is easily remedied, but some are easier than others.
In the last month I've worked harder than I've ever worked before (no kidding). I've got my media grade from D/E to B/C. That's good. My IT grade has come from U to C/D. My Eng. Lit. grade has sort of hovered around A/B, and tbh that's enough for me. ;)
As long as I come out of this year with 100 points or more, I'm not too bothered. Below that, it's not worth going back.
I've decided to cut down on my involvement in quite a lot of stuff online & offline. In the last month:
1. The Carefurs has gone from 'existing' to 'on hiatus because no-one except me appears to care'.
2. As soon as the database is moved and running from it's new location, I will no longer be a contributor to the 9Kingdoms MUCK group. I've thought this over long and hard, and I've decided to leave for more than one reason, but I'll cover those in more depth in a minute.
3. I've lowered the amount of involvement I have in certain projects outside of the internet so I can concentrate on other, paid projects.
Now, reasons for leaving the 9Kingdoms.
It seems that whatever I did, or tried to do, there would always be a detractor. I know it happens to us all, but it's not nice. I won't even get into what someone accused me of being.
I don't have the time.
I can't guarantee total stability on the servers yet.
So, I've left it entirely. I may return in a few years to have a poke around the MUCKs, see what the place has become, but for now, I shall have no more involvement in it.
Third one now ... I've moved away from things such as Silverfang for now, as I'm stupendously busy preparing to take on surplus work from a local web developer. TBH I'm glad of the extra income.
Okay. Loneliness. I think I have someone. I don't know. I may or may not have them ... I don't know how things stand right now. Even if I do have them though, they're still a long way away from me... this is the hardest thing to do something about. If I *knew* things would work out, and I could afford it, I'd leave. Now. I'd be over there in a second. I hate to say it, but I don't know that things will work. I desperately want them to, don't misunderstand, but nothing is certain in life. I'm only 50% of the equation.
As of this post, I'm making a huge effort to try and change my ways. Only time will tell if I succeed.
Anyway, hm. First real post in a while. Comments?