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i am calm ...
i am more centered.....
i am possibly even happier....
talking has helped.....
after having a conversation even if it was just about banal things was reaffirming.... which of course is why i was sad to being with you know ... i know that probably makes no sense .... i guess it just makes me know that what i thought was true .... its like no matter what being able to see that really bright spot you see in your friends
i once wrote a paper in highschool about my best friend jen .... it was really good .... i think we had to equate a person to a color.... but regardless.... the point is .... most often in good and true friends ... there is something in their core that you can almost always see even if they can not.... its why you trust them.... its why you enjoy them so much .... its what makes them more than an aquaintance.....
now they can lose that thing ... sometimes they just lose it in your eyes... and sometimes those people are not forever friends they are just people that need to pass through your life at that point in time for some reason.... but if you have felt that touched by that spot in a friend ... then you cant help but feel happy proud excited when that spot gets bigger or brighter or seen by more people......
yes im weird....
i just wanted to let ppl know im not only good im in a much better place and im really not psycho .... or anything else... =)
i am more centered.....
i am possibly even happier....
talking has helped.....
after having a conversation even if it was just about banal things was reaffirming.... which of course is why i was sad to being with you know ... i know that probably makes no sense .... i guess it just makes me know that what i thought was true .... its like no matter what being able to see that really bright spot you see in your friends
i once wrote a paper in highschool about my best friend jen .... it was really good .... i think we had to equate a person to a color.... but regardless.... the point is .... most often in good and true friends ... there is something in their core that you can almost always see even if they can not.... its why you trust them.... its why you enjoy them so much .... its what makes them more than an aquaintance.....
now they can lose that thing ... sometimes they just lose it in your eyes... and sometimes those people are not forever friends they are just people that need to pass through your life at that point in time for some reason.... but if you have felt that touched by that spot in a friend ... then you cant help but feel happy proud excited when that spot gets bigger or brighter or seen by more people......
yes im weird....
i just wanted to let ppl know im not only good im in a much better place and im really not psycho .... or anything else... =)