nemisis
so I don't think I have had to really work with someone who is the total embodyment of the thing i strive not to be..... the kind of woman i rail against that gives us all a bad name....
I mean the only time i can remember feeling i suppose this jealous ... though i dont know if thats really the right word .... is the time in florida when my roommate was throwing herself at a guy I liked....
part of it i guess is just plain old jealousy .... in seeminly having the kinds od relationships with other staff that I would like to have... um let me clarify that ... staff from other parks... but I have no idea if thats something real or superficial.... but reguardless it seems like the thing I want to have... i mean if its fake no thats not what I want ...i dont want the appearence of something thats not real.... i have had enough of it .. but i want to have what it appears to be for real.... if that makes sense....
I hate her ... the rest is really loathing..... utter loating ... the high pitched girly laugh .. the trowing herself at anyone with a dick .... the making herself know in small abnoxious ways wiht out really interacting with anyone else..... that trying to make everyone feel inferior.... acting is if she is better than everyone else.... and smarter than everyone else... the being a reble with out a cause .....
I am a pretty down to earth kinda person ... i open my own doors... i Open doors for men if I am the first one at the door.... its wanting a feeling of being equal i suppose.... no one has to do things for me .... i am capable of doing them myself.... i do know when I need help .... and i know im still not always good at asking for it....
I hate that she gets special treatment ..... and that its ok... and usually whatever the special treatment is in opposite to what im told or have to do and so on ... so it feels even more like a personal slight....
shes a red head... shes petite .... she thinks shes so damn "special" I hate her!!!!!
mostly I just try to avoide her like the plague ... so that I dont have to be around her which just angers me even mroe and so on
thing is ... she doesnt even have to be here at the park to make me upset..... why i give people i dislike so much control over me i have no clue.... but she zaps my emotional energy ... i spend too much time and energy over her and she doesnt even know it .... and all of it is not good and no serving me well in any way shape or form ...
thing is ... i dont know how to stop this morbid train of obsession im on with her...gahh ... ok back to work to get something real done and not waste the whole day
I mean the only time i can remember feeling i suppose this jealous ... though i dont know if thats really the right word .... is the time in florida when my roommate was throwing herself at a guy I liked....
part of it i guess is just plain old jealousy .... in seeminly having the kinds od relationships with other staff that I would like to have... um let me clarify that ... staff from other parks... but I have no idea if thats something real or superficial.... but reguardless it seems like the thing I want to have... i mean if its fake no thats not what I want ...i dont want the appearence of something thats not real.... i have had enough of it .. but i want to have what it appears to be for real.... if that makes sense....
I hate her ... the rest is really loathing..... utter loating ... the high pitched girly laugh .. the trowing herself at anyone with a dick .... the making herself know in small abnoxious ways wiht out really interacting with anyone else..... that trying to make everyone feel inferior.... acting is if she is better than everyone else.... and smarter than everyone else... the being a reble with out a cause .....
I am a pretty down to earth kinda person ... i open my own doors... i Open doors for men if I am the first one at the door.... its wanting a feeling of being equal i suppose.... no one has to do things for me .... i am capable of doing them myself.... i do know when I need help .... and i know im still not always good at asking for it....
I hate that she gets special treatment ..... and that its ok... and usually whatever the special treatment is in opposite to what im told or have to do and so on ... so it feels even more like a personal slight....
shes a red head... shes petite .... she thinks shes so damn "special" I hate her!!!!!
mostly I just try to avoide her like the plague ... so that I dont have to be around her which just angers me even mroe and so on
thing is ... she doesnt even have to be here at the park to make me upset..... why i give people i dislike so much control over me i have no clue.... but she zaps my emotional energy ... i spend too much time and energy over her and she doesnt even know it .... and all of it is not good and no serving me well in any way shape or form ...
thing is ... i dont know how to stop this morbid train of obsession im on with her...gahh ... ok back to work to get something real done and not waste the whole day