all goes well
Physically I feel the best that I’ve felt in a long time. I’ve lost 12 pounds, I think I’m probably the healthiest when it comes to meals/exercise than I’ve been in quite some time, and for the first time in a long time I’m very confident with my appearance.
Work is going excellent. Not a cloud in the sky. Sometimes I feel like I don’t do a thing but stare at my computer screen yet I continue to get praise…. Which is not common around here. Sales are naturally going up due spring, and I’m really good at what I do. I even got a free mini fridge from google, for being “cool.” =) Sometimes I feel like I’m not challenged enough, or there’s nothing really pushing me forward. Perhaps it’s a lack of passion… it’s just that everything just seems all too easy at times, that it’s just bizarre. At the moment, I really have nothing to complain about.
A lot of my guys friends are into me, but unfortunately at the moment I just don’t feel anything back. I’m super picky at least at first, and then I guess when I’m hooked, I’m hooked… or I guess. I feel this confusion to what on earth gets me hooked any ways. For the most part I’m very content on being single right now, and I think it’s what I prefer. It took a while to get here, but I don’t want to fall into something for the sake of falling into something. I’m really confused about my feelings sometimes too. I mean about this time last year, I was in pain. I had no confidence, I was low. I think at the moment I felt like it was something I had to endure to get through some kind phase/unknown depression that was being dealt w/ by another. I couldn’t control it, but I thought it was worth it and I cared so much -- probably too much…. And I knew there were better days to come. I’ve pondered over the blame for quite sometime, and gone back and forth feeling a sense of guilt and remorse. Though I helplessly do at times, I shouldn’t, and it doesn’t accomplish anything.
What will be will be… I really ought to avoid feeling pain cause that’s no fun, and with everything going so well right now and being as cool as I am, what’s the point? And I think I have my sensitivity, the way I do really care, and what I have to offer as positive attributes… giving me no reason to settle and/or feel bad. Gotta keep reminding myself that.
Work is going excellent. Not a cloud in the sky. Sometimes I feel like I don’t do a thing but stare at my computer screen yet I continue to get praise…. Which is not common around here. Sales are naturally going up due spring, and I’m really good at what I do. I even got a free mini fridge from google, for being “cool.” =) Sometimes I feel like I’m not challenged enough, or there’s nothing really pushing me forward. Perhaps it’s a lack of passion… it’s just that everything just seems all too easy at times, that it’s just bizarre. At the moment, I really have nothing to complain about.
A lot of my guys friends are into me, but unfortunately at the moment I just don’t feel anything back. I’m super picky at least at first, and then I guess when I’m hooked, I’m hooked… or I guess. I feel this confusion to what on earth gets me hooked any ways. For the most part I’m very content on being single right now, and I think it’s what I prefer. It took a while to get here, but I don’t want to fall into something for the sake of falling into something. I’m really confused about my feelings sometimes too. I mean about this time last year, I was in pain. I had no confidence, I was low. I think at the moment I felt like it was something I had to endure to get through some kind phase/unknown depression that was being dealt w/ by another. I couldn’t control it, but I thought it was worth it and I cared so much -- probably too much…. And I knew there were better days to come. I’ve pondered over the blame for quite sometime, and gone back and forth feeling a sense of guilt and remorse. Though I helplessly do at times, I shouldn’t, and it doesn’t accomplish anything.
What will be will be… I really ought to avoid feeling pain cause that’s no fun, and with everything going so well right now and being as cool as I am, what’s the point? And I think I have my sensitivity, the way I do really care, and what I have to offer as positive attributes… giving me no reason to settle and/or feel bad. Gotta keep reminding myself that.