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I am exhausted. Today I skipped all my classes just because I didn’t want to go. But it’s not like I took advantage of the extra time that I saved from not attending class. Oh well, I'm not very upset that I didn’t hear Harms give another very rehearsed lecture or that I didn’t get to enjoy my classmate’s presentations about websites.
I got a job. Offered and accepted, just like we learned in business law. It’s a Rockauto.com, an online retailer for auto parts. I talked to brother number 2 (he lives in WA, and I will be working under him via phone/email) today. I was informed that there other marketing guy was let go, and yep, if I choose to accept it will just be him and me. I told him honestly this seems like a wonderful opportunity but it is a bit scary to start out with sooooo much responsibility right out of college. I AM SCARED. He seemed nice, but if 4 months down the line I am also let go… well that would not be cool.
I remember this guy that was let go during my interview. He was on the cocky side of confident and had many years of experience in the ad agency. I got nada.
And how much are they paying little me to do this job…. $22 / hour. Assuming I work 40 hours a week and 52 weeks a year, that is $45,760. They don’t offer health/dental insurance, so minus $3000 from that to get $42,760….. which is still awesome, but a little much for a entry level marketing assistant job, no? I mean if they paid me a crappy wage I wouldn’t have to feel so guilty when I suck it up.
I realize I am being very pessimistic. And I AM super excited because that is way more than I ever expected and paying off my debt (from the thousands of dollars in school loans) is oh so appealing. And being independent from the fam is a dream come true. On top of that I never ever thought I would be working for a dot com, but I really think it is going to be a wonderful opportunity. OT is attractive rather than feared cause I’d be getting time and a half. Having said that, I am sure they will want to try to keep me to 40 hours a week due to the OT factor, so I never have to worry about being worked to death. Lastly, I can wear jeans and a sweatshirt to work if I so desired.
The reason behind the pessimism is that I just rather not be surprised by failure leading to disappointment. I guess it’s a coping mechanism. I really question if I can do this, if I am capable, and if I can make an impact. It’s so scary right now with everything all changing and having no control over anything. It’s enough to make a girl go insane or at least doubt herself and lose faith in things. And you just want to hold on to the things that are stable, great, wonderful, cause they keep you sane, but perhaps those will slip away too… and it’s just never ending circle of insecurities that can’t be stopped. But I’ll prevail, I mean I have to. And if I don’t whatever, at least I tried and I think that counts for something. I know there will always be other options out there.
K, lets all cross our fingers that A.) the basement people don’t play loud music tonight. And B.) that there will be no next door loud deaf sex going on either.
I got a job. Offered and accepted, just like we learned in business law. It’s a Rockauto.com, an online retailer for auto parts. I talked to brother number 2 (he lives in WA, and I will be working under him via phone/email) today. I was informed that there other marketing guy was let go, and yep, if I choose to accept it will just be him and me. I told him honestly this seems like a wonderful opportunity but it is a bit scary to start out with sooooo much responsibility right out of college. I AM SCARED. He seemed nice, but if 4 months down the line I am also let go… well that would not be cool.
I remember this guy that was let go during my interview. He was on the cocky side of confident and had many years of experience in the ad agency. I got nada.
And how much are they paying little me to do this job…. $22 / hour. Assuming I work 40 hours a week and 52 weeks a year, that is $45,760. They don’t offer health/dental insurance, so minus $3000 from that to get $42,760….. which is still awesome, but a little much for a entry level marketing assistant job, no? I mean if they paid me a crappy wage I wouldn’t have to feel so guilty when I suck it up.
I realize I am being very pessimistic. And I AM super excited because that is way more than I ever expected and paying off my debt (from the thousands of dollars in school loans) is oh so appealing. And being independent from the fam is a dream come true. On top of that I never ever thought I would be working for a dot com, but I really think it is going to be a wonderful opportunity. OT is attractive rather than feared cause I’d be getting time and a half. Having said that, I am sure they will want to try to keep me to 40 hours a week due to the OT factor, so I never have to worry about being worked to death. Lastly, I can wear jeans and a sweatshirt to work if I so desired.
The reason behind the pessimism is that I just rather not be surprised by failure leading to disappointment. I guess it’s a coping mechanism. I really question if I can do this, if I am capable, and if I can make an impact. It’s so scary right now with everything all changing and having no control over anything. It’s enough to make a girl go insane or at least doubt herself and lose faith in things. And you just want to hold on to the things that are stable, great, wonderful, cause they keep you sane, but perhaps those will slip away too… and it’s just never ending circle of insecurities that can’t be stopped. But I’ll prevail, I mean I have to. And if I don’t whatever, at least I tried and I think that counts for something. I know there will always be other options out there.
K, lets all cross our fingers that A.) the basement people don’t play loud music tonight. And B.) that there will be no next door loud deaf sex going on either.