Rah La La finally has something to write....
So I've realized today that I no longer really enjoy myself when I'm alone. I'm antsy for the company of other people...the interaction with other people. I was looking at these pictures I took of the sunrise last May and although I'm constantly taking pictures of the clouds, I took these pictures of the sunrise not only to get some beautiful pictures, but to have that time to myself when it feels as though no one is up or around. It was like 5:30 or 6 in the morning...that time where it feels as if you have the whole world to yourself. It's a wonderful feeling, even though now I'm not all excited by the thought of getting up early just catch a sunrise. Maybe it will be a once a year thing. Ha.
As for school, it sucks. I really hate it and don't care for it at the moment. Damn, and last year I loved school, always getting excited to go to class and do well. I want to do well, I just don't care enough at the moment to do the work. Alas, I am doing the work, just sloppily and without much effort. Sure, I have things on my mind, but I really just DON'T want to do homework. And today, I got so fed up with my damn Hip Hop teacher that I had to leave, 20 minutes into class. Or should I say, 20 minutes of the damn teacher constantly repeating over and over the process in which to take a web-based test that is self-explanatory and doesn't need some person constantly telling you to save the answer and hit the finish button to submit the test. I mean really, how hard is it? And WHY, oh why did someone ask her a question after she explained it 5 million times??? Things like this bug me so much. I was sitting there wanting to scream...but I didn't, I just sighed really loud and cleared my throat once or twice, while rolling my eyes. Then I left.
See, this is the first long journal I've posted in a long time...all because I'm really lazy and I would rather just sit here staring at the screen then think about typing all my thoughts down.
My other problem at the moment is somewhat of a big problem. I'm a bit confused as to how I'm going about it just because I'm really not all that worried about it, even though I know it's a big deal and it will cause me a lot of stress, but right now I don't really care to worry about it. And once I really find out if it is a big problem or not, I still feel like I'll just be "whatever, let's take care of it" rather than being like "oh my god, this is terrible, what am i going to do?" etc, etc. Maybe this is a good thing. I know it can be taken care of, so why should I really worry? There we go, I just answered my own question. So this is why I like to write. I should do this more often. And props to you for reading all the way through! Unless you just skimmed and read the last paragraph...I still love you.
As for school, it sucks. I really hate it and don't care for it at the moment. Damn, and last year I loved school, always getting excited to go to class and do well. I want to do well, I just don't care enough at the moment to do the work. Alas, I am doing the work, just sloppily and without much effort. Sure, I have things on my mind, but I really just DON'T want to do homework. And today, I got so fed up with my damn Hip Hop teacher that I had to leave, 20 minutes into class. Or should I say, 20 minutes of the damn teacher constantly repeating over and over the process in which to take a web-based test that is self-explanatory and doesn't need some person constantly telling you to save the answer and hit the finish button to submit the test. I mean really, how hard is it? And WHY, oh why did someone ask her a question after she explained it 5 million times??? Things like this bug me so much. I was sitting there wanting to scream...but I didn't, I just sighed really loud and cleared my throat once or twice, while rolling my eyes. Then I left.
See, this is the first long journal I've posted in a long time...all because I'm really lazy and I would rather just sit here staring at the screen then think about typing all my thoughts down.
My other problem at the moment is somewhat of a big problem. I'm a bit confused as to how I'm going about it just because I'm really not all that worried about it, even though I know it's a big deal and it will cause me a lot of stress, but right now I don't really care to worry about it. And once I really find out if it is a big problem or not, I still feel like I'll just be "whatever, let's take care of it" rather than being like "oh my god, this is terrible, what am i going to do?" etc, etc. Maybe this is a good thing. I know it can be taken care of, so why should I really worry? There we go, I just answered my own question. So this is why I like to write. I should do this more often. And props to you for reading all the way through! Unless you just skimmed and read the last paragraph...I still love you.