bare backing? (and other sex stuff)
I learned a new word today,
That word was "Shota"
omg.
in other news, our obligatory lyrics.
Remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
-- Buckley - Hallelujah
anyway, discussing of getting screwed is below.
proceed at your own risk
There's something about getting fucked. it hurts alot, and I can't say as how I'v ever had it be what I know it can be, but I'm hoping to work up to that. perhaps I'll invest in a toy and learn to relax. I have a toy now, but it was more a humor item than anything I think I could seriously fit up there.
I've become fascinated with bare backing. After M and I were together for a while, and we were both clean, we tried it once, and it was the best thing I've ever felt. the feeling, when someone comes inside of you, omg. it is truely devine. I wouldnt mind doing that with a witch and working ritual around that. I could definately see a path there.
then again, part of it is my intelectual trip on being used. lying there with cum dripping out of ones ass like a used rag doll rape victim has it's own neat apeal in that way. gets me all excited just thinking about it. but I can't deal with the pain of the friction. it's not the issue of having someone inside of me. I like the full feeling it brings, but moving, the friction, hurts. perhaps better lube. something thick. maxim I believe is what the Blowfish people recomend.
Maybe I could con A into a trip to pleasure chest or something. I realy need to get a job so I can be more self sufficient. I don't want to be a whore, or worse yet, a user. :( I'm realy good at manipulating people when I don't try to, and I have to be attentive to avoid it. I don't want to use people, and I fall into that trap easily. A is so nice, I fear I might fall into that with him. I've already let him spoil me rotton. I've not paid for a single meal yet. Once again, it's ballancing the desire to be taken care of with the need to not become... yhea... bleh.
another thing for me that's wierd. I'm all about the orgasim. I like other people to have them, and I like having them. I like the afterglow, and snuggling, etc, but the act of sex, I've never got the tantric thing. maybe again, it's my friction issues, and the fact that eventualy my jaw goes sore for other things. (I need to take up chewing bubble gum or something to strengthen that)
with the blowjobs, I think I enjoy playing with a limp dick as much as I do .... well... excepting the human factor of course. I don't know. it reminds me of when I was a kid with R. simpler, just having fun and doing things that felt neat. hard to explain how it's diffrent now, but it is. I think the addition of a romantic interest is what complicates it. I wonder if the craigslist/weho crowd has that type of thing going on, where it's just friends doing what feels good.... hrmm...
I don't know. I should like to get A to help me learn to get to the point where I can acomidate him in a fashion we would both enjoy, and haven't yet. :)
That word was "Shota"
omg.
in other news, our obligatory lyrics.
Remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
-- Buckley - Hallelujah
anyway, discussing of getting screwed is below.
proceed at your own risk
There's something about getting fucked. it hurts alot, and I can't say as how I'v ever had it be what I know it can be, but I'm hoping to work up to that. perhaps I'll invest in a toy and learn to relax. I have a toy now, but it was more a humor item than anything I think I could seriously fit up there.
I've become fascinated with bare backing. After M and I were together for a while, and we were both clean, we tried it once, and it was the best thing I've ever felt. the feeling, when someone comes inside of you, omg. it is truely devine. I wouldnt mind doing that with a witch and working ritual around that. I could definately see a path there.
then again, part of it is my intelectual trip on being used. lying there with cum dripping out of ones ass like a used rag doll rape victim has it's own neat apeal in that way. gets me all excited just thinking about it. but I can't deal with the pain of the friction. it's not the issue of having someone inside of me. I like the full feeling it brings, but moving, the friction, hurts. perhaps better lube. something thick. maxim I believe is what the Blowfish people recomend.
Maybe I could con A into a trip to pleasure chest or something. I realy need to get a job so I can be more self sufficient. I don't want to be a whore, or worse yet, a user. :( I'm realy good at manipulating people when I don't try to, and I have to be attentive to avoid it. I don't want to use people, and I fall into that trap easily. A is so nice, I fear I might fall into that with him. I've already let him spoil me rotton. I've not paid for a single meal yet. Once again, it's ballancing the desire to be taken care of with the need to not become... yhea... bleh.
another thing for me that's wierd. I'm all about the orgasim. I like other people to have them, and I like having them. I like the afterglow, and snuggling, etc, but the act of sex, I've never got the tantric thing. maybe again, it's my friction issues, and the fact that eventualy my jaw goes sore for other things. (I need to take up chewing bubble gum or something to strengthen that)
with the blowjobs, I think I enjoy playing with a limp dick as much as I do .... well... excepting the human factor of course. I don't know. it reminds me of when I was a kid with R. simpler, just having fun and doing things that felt neat. hard to explain how it's diffrent now, but it is. I think the addition of a romantic interest is what complicates it. I wonder if the craigslist/weho crowd has that type of thing going on, where it's just friends doing what feels good.... hrmm...
I don't know. I should like to get A to help me learn to get to the point where I can acomidate him in a fashion we would both enjoy, and haven't yet. :)