i used to be younger. still pretty young, though.
I forgot to sign into livejournal the other day, and when I tried to access someone's fic, LJ asked me if I was 18. And it just hit me - man, I remember when I clicked that thing on sites and was lying my ass off. I'm 24 and Izzy and I were watching Glee Project (it's stupidly entertaining, a reality competition with singing,) and they are all so young they're just 18-21, but sometimes one of them says something and I'm thinking... you'll grow out of that. (Hopefully!) With maturity can come less angst, if you let it. I think we're all required to angst a little as teens, but hopefully you can let go and grow past that as adults.
This entry started off about how weird it was that I'm doing the exact same thing I did at 16, just with less, you know, lying. I'm not sure where it went.
The Governor's School program in NC is in danger of being shut down because the state won't give it any fucking funding. I donated twenty bucks, because they said they can run with tuition costs if they can get $100,000 by August 1 or something. They're at $60k right now, so I hope they make it. I loved GS so much. Still love. I haven't been back for alumni day yet - it's kind of halfway down this country's coast from me - but I hope to at some point. It shaped me as a person. It is literally the longest sustained period of happiness I have ever had, emphasized in memory by the shitty stuff that happened after I went home. It's not the poor - well, I guess indirectly, since the poor couldn't afford even minimal tuition if they charged - and it's not for animals and it's not for a tearjerking cause. It's for smart kids in a single state who deserve to have one hell of an awesome summer, learning and connecting and having fun and being free for the first time (as long as you don't leave the campus area!). I want other people to be as profoundly affected as I was.
In other, more mundane news, work is fine. Friends are fine. Izzy threw a kegger and I did my first keg stand - eight seconds, but I will totally get better. Jenna's first time was a repectable eleven. Anastasiya is awesome and did twenty-three seconds her first time! That girl is so fantastic in some many ways, I have no words. Her energy could blow up the planet.
This entry started off about how weird it was that I'm doing the exact same thing I did at 16, just with less, you know, lying. I'm not sure where it went.
The Governor's School program in NC is in danger of being shut down because the state won't give it any fucking funding. I donated twenty bucks, because they said they can run with tuition costs if they can get $100,000 by August 1 or something. They're at $60k right now, so I hope they make it. I loved GS so much. Still love. I haven't been back for alumni day yet - it's kind of halfway down this country's coast from me - but I hope to at some point. It shaped me as a person. It is literally the longest sustained period of happiness I have ever had, emphasized in memory by the shitty stuff that happened after I went home. It's not the poor - well, I guess indirectly, since the poor couldn't afford even minimal tuition if they charged - and it's not for animals and it's not for a tearjerking cause. It's for smart kids in a single state who deserve to have one hell of an awesome summer, learning and connecting and having fun and being free for the first time (as long as you don't leave the campus area!). I want other people to be as profoundly affected as I was.
In other, more mundane news, work is fine. Friends are fine. Izzy threw a kegger and I did my first keg stand - eight seconds, but I will totally get better. Jenna's first time was a repectable eleven. Anastasiya is awesome and did twenty-three seconds her first time! That girl is so fantastic in some many ways, I have no words. Her energy could blow up the planet.