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well i came across here while i was stuck up late one night. so i figure i right my thoughts out tonight. I am still me for the most part, but i finally learned about me. I am pretty much the same block of ice i was when i was younger. I used to think that i was this emotional and warm-hearted individual, but i guess i wasn't. I am happy to know why i am not like that though. I noticed that i am a very objective thinker. I look at all sides of a topic and make my choices wisely. I like that because i am tired of bull.
I think back about this place and i remember why i started it. I was very foolish when i was younger, I can't remember half of what i was doing, but i do know it had something to do with girls. I been on my own for the better part of 3 years now and i am still content with my life. I like the simple things, friends, air, fun.
I am still trying to think and i can't seem to get past things of today. i got up, did my usual. I am tired of bad drivers though, I was dropping family off at there jobs. I had the unfortunate "pleasure" of driving with maniacs at the turnpike. I am lucky that i pretty much am a top rate driver at 90mph. I came back home then headed to dojang.
I teach there now. I must say i do like it, i really get to understand all aspects of techniques when you teach them. I thought i was a fool, but when i teach i see how much i truly learned, and how i can effectively use my knowledge, definitely a happy blackbelt in that department. my training has slow due to a leg injury, i am now getting back into it and losing all the horrible weight gain from it. I wanna return to my former glory condition wise.
i feel really nice today too. Yesterday i attended the opening of a Buddhist temple, it was always open, but now they have an authentic statue of Buddha and have really grown as a whole. I got to attend the eye opening ceremony, and got to make some wishes. I now am wearing a this cool bunch of strings on my wrist. It was connected to the statue, and all people grabbed on and passed there wishes and energies to the statue, i now will where it for 21 days and hope the wishes come true. i should have wished for my pit bull to stop hounding me so much.
I must say i am the proud owner of a pitbul now, her name is brownie and she was a gift from one of my brothers co-workers. She is the largest of her litter at 60+ lbs, and is a ball of energy and strength. Se has the mean streak of a pillow, but will more than defend us. It is hilarious because i need little, if no, protection. but she makes a great friend. I still hold my dogs as my closest and more dear of friends. I may be ice, but not to animals. The dogs only flaw is that she will pee her pants when she is spooked, not very pitbully...lol
I have seemed to be blabbering for now.... i now am starting to feel tired. I wish i can keep going, but i will past more tomorrow. I need to start getting thoughts out, and i feel this would be a good a place as any. i need to start thinking about my life as a whole. there are things what i really wanna do. part of me wants to settle down, parts want nothing to do with that after how my life has been since the age of 18. When i think of it, i still miss ash. Yeah i am talking to girls more often then i like, she was the only one i loved. sad, i think about it and realize i got the emotional range of a teaspoon.
i will start looking into that and why i want to live with so lil tomorrow..
I think back about this place and i remember why i started it. I was very foolish when i was younger, I can't remember half of what i was doing, but i do know it had something to do with girls. I been on my own for the better part of 3 years now and i am still content with my life. I like the simple things, friends, air, fun.
I am still trying to think and i can't seem to get past things of today. i got up, did my usual. I am tired of bad drivers though, I was dropping family off at there jobs. I had the unfortunate "pleasure" of driving with maniacs at the turnpike. I am lucky that i pretty much am a top rate driver at 90mph. I came back home then headed to dojang.
I teach there now. I must say i do like it, i really get to understand all aspects of techniques when you teach them. I thought i was a fool, but when i teach i see how much i truly learned, and how i can effectively use my knowledge, definitely a happy blackbelt in that department. my training has slow due to a leg injury, i am now getting back into it and losing all the horrible weight gain from it. I wanna return to my former glory condition wise.
i feel really nice today too. Yesterday i attended the opening of a Buddhist temple, it was always open, but now they have an authentic statue of Buddha and have really grown as a whole. I got to attend the eye opening ceremony, and got to make some wishes. I now am wearing a this cool bunch of strings on my wrist. It was connected to the statue, and all people grabbed on and passed there wishes and energies to the statue, i now will where it for 21 days and hope the wishes come true. i should have wished for my pit bull to stop hounding me so much.
I must say i am the proud owner of a pitbul now, her name is brownie and she was a gift from one of my brothers co-workers. She is the largest of her litter at 60+ lbs, and is a ball of energy and strength. Se has the mean streak of a pillow, but will more than defend us. It is hilarious because i need little, if no, protection. but she makes a great friend. I still hold my dogs as my closest and more dear of friends. I may be ice, but not to animals. The dogs only flaw is that she will pee her pants when she is spooked, not very pitbully...lol
I have seemed to be blabbering for now.... i now am starting to feel tired. I wish i can keep going, but i will past more tomorrow. I need to start getting thoughts out, and i feel this would be a good a place as any. i need to start thinking about my life as a whole. there are things what i really wanna do. part of me wants to settle down, parts want nothing to do with that after how my life has been since the age of 18. When i think of it, i still miss ash. Yeah i am talking to girls more often then i like, she was the only one i loved. sad, i think about it and realize i got the emotional range of a teaspoon.
i will start looking into that and why i want to live with so lil tomorrow..