my problems
I think I'm psycho:
Last night I was okay with sleeping with my door open and NO sound (no music or my sleep machine rain) until I woke up about 3 o'clock terrified. Of what I didn't know. So I got out of bed and turned on my bathroom light. I searched my shower and then closed the door. Then I turned on my dressing room light and closed my bedroom door and locked it and placed my chair in front of the door. SO I thought this would calm me down but as soon as I laid down again and got more terrified. I turned on my bedroom light as well and turned on my computer to play music. I felt like I was going to throw up and I needed some water but I was petrified to go out of my bedroom so I drank from my sink. I didn't fall asleep til 4:30 or somewhere around there.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!!!! I don't think I can be doing this much longer. It's been going on for as long as I can remember. This fear is really putting a damper on my sleep. That's why I insist someone stays with me all the time. The only ways I can find comfort to sleep thru the night is with someone else or alcohol.
I'm not sure what scares me most of the time. But the fear is so strong that I'm paralyzed. Maybe I need some kind of medication to sedate me.
Last night I was okay with sleeping with my door open and NO sound (no music or my sleep machine rain) until I woke up about 3 o'clock terrified. Of what I didn't know. So I got out of bed and turned on my bathroom light. I searched my shower and then closed the door. Then I turned on my dressing room light and closed my bedroom door and locked it and placed my chair in front of the door. SO I thought this would calm me down but as soon as I laid down again and got more terrified. I turned on my bedroom light as well and turned on my computer to play music. I felt like I was going to throw up and I needed some water but I was petrified to go out of my bedroom so I drank from my sink. I didn't fall asleep til 4:30 or somewhere around there.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!!!! I don't think I can be doing this much longer. It's been going on for as long as I can remember. This fear is really putting a damper on my sleep. That's why I insist someone stays with me all the time. The only ways I can find comfort to sleep thru the night is with someone else or alcohol.
I'm not sure what scares me most of the time. But the fear is so strong that I'm paralyzed. Maybe I need some kind of medication to sedate me.