oh hello
2008 has been a pretty good year. Although basically all of it was a big haze of feeling sorry for myself, I realize now that it's something that needed to happen in order for me to really understand what's uh...not good about me.
I realized that to a lot of people who are not very close to me, i'm this weird living doll that appears to dislike everyone. It's hard for me to get across that I really like most people and wish I could talk to them more, and I know that I should do something about it. A lot of my problems stemmed from letting people take advantage of me while saying that I was fine with it. I need a shirt that says 'i am actually a friendly person once you get to know me'. I wish I could just start being nice and talking to everyone because i'm capable of it now, but most of the time I feel like i've dug too big of a hole already. I just want to open up to more people. I agree with others, too many of our relationships are impersonal. I dislike it too.
Zak's words also apply to me; I shouldn't fall for every girl that I have things in common with! I am a silly kid. At least now i'm old enough to actually take that advice.
For some odd reason this past year has shown a huge resurgence of blink-182 into my life. The practices and (two) shows have been interesting and will definitely serve as some fond memories. I'm going to miss it. I think they said it best: well I guess this is growing up. haha.
2009 is going to be the year of Kevin having a job and a car and being nicer and warmer to people.
(For christmas Sam got me a postcard signed by all the members of Belle and Sebastian ("hi kevin, best wishes from b&s..." oh my goodness) and i think it's the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me. I'm very glad I started talking to sam a lot this year, he seems to be the only one that understands me, as sad as that is). So long.
I realized that to a lot of people who are not very close to me, i'm this weird living doll that appears to dislike everyone. It's hard for me to get across that I really like most people and wish I could talk to them more, and I know that I should do something about it. A lot of my problems stemmed from letting people take advantage of me while saying that I was fine with it. I need a shirt that says 'i am actually a friendly person once you get to know me'. I wish I could just start being nice and talking to everyone because i'm capable of it now, but most of the time I feel like i've dug too big of a hole already. I just want to open up to more people. I agree with others, too many of our relationships are impersonal. I dislike it too.
Zak's words also apply to me; I shouldn't fall for every girl that I have things in common with! I am a silly kid. At least now i'm old enough to actually take that advice.
For some odd reason this past year has shown a huge resurgence of blink-182 into my life. The practices and (two) shows have been interesting and will definitely serve as some fond memories. I'm going to miss it. I think they said it best: well I guess this is growing up. haha.
2009 is going to be the year of Kevin having a job and a car and being nicer and warmer to people.
(For christmas Sam got me a postcard signed by all the members of Belle and Sebastian ("hi kevin, best wishes from b&s..." oh my goodness) and i think it's the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me. I'm very glad I started talking to sam a lot this year, he seems to be the only one that understands me, as sad as that is). So long.