what do i want?
I've been thinking a lot lately...i know not good. So many things remind me of how it used to be, and how i used to be. Wow you think you can get over it but in reality you cant. I give people a lot of props if they can get over it that fast and erase everything that quickly, i just dont know how you can do it. Im very lucky to have friends that i can trust and tell certain things too and know that i'll get feedback from them and i know they wont blurt it out to others. My sister and i talked about it, cause she knows how i feel and vice versa, i can talk to my other lady friends about it too but they dont have the feelings that i do so they dont exactly see where im coming from. I guess the only one that can help me is me so this is my way of helping myself. Writing it down, or in this case typing it out. Part of me wants to hold out and the other part just says let go. Whichever path i choose to take i hope it will make me happier then where i am now. I think thats all i have to say now. I hope you are all doing well, and ttyl...lata