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It seems that every time I attempt to cheer myself up, it just back-fires. My birthday party was horrible, nine people cancelled on me the day before it and then people who said they would show up didn't. It pisses me off, I am jealous of those who are leaving Conyers, I hate this place these people, and all this frustration and confusion is stopping me from what I like doing...painting, writing, even my only outlets of emotion are useless....and no i am not crestfallen or hopeless, I am just angry and I have no one to blame but myself.....Sometimes I really do hate this full range of emotions thing we humans have, but right now it is just nothingness it is all nothing.