Back in the South

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So my trip to Michigan was better than anticipated. The reasons for going home were shitty to say the least but at least it wasn't all bad. Wednesday morning Stacey and I got up and got dressed and headed to the church for Angie C's mom's funeral. I thought I was going to be able to handle it, but maybe because it was at St. Mary's, maybe because the opening hymn was Bread of Life, maybe even because it was someone else's mom. Whatever it was, I broke down. I could not handle being there, so half way through the funeral I had to get up and leave. It just brought back so many emotions that I haven't felt in so long. I miss my mom and being there just made me realize how much. After the funeral and wake, we headed to the funeral home for Corin's brother. Luckily Gendernalick has since built a new building and I didn't have to be in the same room where my mom had been. A lot of people came to the viewing which was very comforting to Corin. Jen even came which I know had to be tough for her since she hasn't talk to her in months. But, I am glad that the petty stuff could just be put aside and friends could be there for each other.

Once the funerals were over, I did manage to have a little bit of fun at least. Thursday night Stacey and I just hung out at her house and had a few cocktails. Josh came over for a few hours. Man, it is so crazy that when I see him my heart still flutters. I wish that I could say that I am over him, but I just don't think I ever will be. At least that is what I thought at the time...

Friday night Corin, Stacey and I went over to Jen's place and met her new dog Mia. It was a good visit. It meant so much to me to have the 4 of us girls together and having a good time. My previous trips home it was so hard because I felt like I had to make separate time for the girls since they were no longer on the best of terms.

So overall the trip was good. I don't know when I will be back again though...