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OMG!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE HELL DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF???????? I DECIDE I'M PISSED OFF AT SOMEBODY BUT THEN I INSTANT MESSAGE THEM ANYWAY AND WHAT DO THEY DO???? THEY PISS ME OFF AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S ENOUGH THAT HE FREAKIN HAS A GIRLFRIEND AND IS SHOVING IT INTO MY FACE AT EVERY CHANCE HE GETS!! AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF HIM ASKING ME IF I'VE HOOKED UP YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO I HAVEN'T HOOKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW MANY MORE FREAKIN TIMES DO YOU NEED TO REMIND ME THAT I HAVEN'T HOOKED UP SINCE I BROKE UP WITH YOU??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ITS NOT LIKE ITS REAL EASY FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T HAVE A PLETHORA OF BOYS HANGING AROUND ME LIKE YOU HAVE OF GIRLS!!! CAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!?!? YOU'RE HOT!!!! REAL RIDICULOUSLY HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE ARE PROBABLY GIRLS WHO'VE GOT CRUSHES ON YOU THAT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW EXIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND GUESS WHAT?!?! I JUST DON'T HAVE THAT TYPE OF FAN CLUB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I WAS PERFECTLY HAPPY BEFORE WE WERE TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT NOW I KNOW WHAT I'M MISSING AND IT SUCKS BALLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? IT'S THE SILENCE THAT'S KILLING ME!!!!!!!! IT'S THE SILENCE OF NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO YOU ON A DAILY BASIS, THE SILENCE OF NOT BEING A PART OF YOUR LIFE ANYMORE, THE SILENCE OF YOU NOT BEING A PART OF MY LIFE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M THAT FRUSTERATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND I NEVER SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT EITHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND IF YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS ENTRY, I'M GONNA BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EMBARRASED CAUSE AS MUCH AS I NEED TO WRITE THIS DOWN, I FEEL SAFE KNOWING THAT THERE'S A 75-95% CHANCE YOU WON'T READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND EVERYONE ELSE THAT DOES READ THIS WILL BE CONFUSED AS HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO I'VE DECIDED ANOTHER THING! we can't be just friends. it's sucking the life out of me. i think about you at least once a day if not more. and i just can't deal with it.
it's 11:41 and sharon is still in the shower. (she got in at 10) I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's 11:41 and sharon is still in the shower. (she got in at 10) I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!