I am loved; praise God
Why is it that you have to be conditionally loved to learn that you're unconditionally loved?
Have you ever believed in soul mates? Or your one true love?
When you watch romantic movies do you sigh and long for that kind of love?
Have you grew up believing that when you found your one true love that your life would be complete and it would be as easy as "they lived happily ever after"?
Well I did.
And I have fallen in love.
And I have learned that it isn't that easy.
There's so many doubts and fears when you hand over your heart.
It's so fragile that the smallest amount of neglect can be devastating ...
I am loved by a man.
He wants to marry me.
He wants to spend the rest of his life with me.
He wants to share everything with me.
He wants to take care of me.
He loves me more than he thought it was possible to love some one.
And yet ...
He is only a man
and it's not enough.
I am only human
and you think that I would only need a humans love
But this is false.
We humans, we're all about waste.
Billions of pounds of trash every year; running the earth out of it's resources.
We require more energy into things that we get out.
And because of that we eventual run out of energy.
So some one loving us equal to our own capacity to love isn't enough ... Eventually it would fade, therefor it is conditional
This man is everything I have dreamed for
and yet he's not enough
I need more
I thirst for more
I thirst for unconditional, undying, undenied love that comes from only one thing: God.
I want to be filled to the brim with this love and then love others. I want God to love through me just so I can feel it flow through me, just to get a brush of the grace in Him. Just the idea takes my breath away ...
It amazes me how much He loves me, and that constant unwavering love is so easy to take for granted ... if you don't have to work to maintain it then it's easy to forget it's there.
I am begining to realize that I don't love Him enough; and I can't love Him enough; heck I can't even pray to Him with out His help.
Compared to God I'm a mumbling; illiterate fool that he has to constantly care for.
He loves me so much he can't take his eyes off me.
Can't take His eyes off this broken, twisted being.
He loves me so much that even though I'm full of sin He forgave me, He knows what I really am inside, He knows how ugly I am and yet he still loves me. He comforts me, soothes me, surrounds me with love and mends my wounds. He is fixing me ...
He is so amazing, and I am nothing compared to Him ... I ask myself often, why? Why do I diserve this? ... and I believe deep down that I don't .... I just cling on to Jesus and pray that I worship Him enough, that I am open enough to him, that everyday I open the door and let him in ...
Have you ever believed in soul mates? Or your one true love?
When you watch romantic movies do you sigh and long for that kind of love?
Have you grew up believing that when you found your one true love that your life would be complete and it would be as easy as "they lived happily ever after"?
Well I did.
And I have fallen in love.
And I have learned that it isn't that easy.
There's so many doubts and fears when you hand over your heart.
It's so fragile that the smallest amount of neglect can be devastating ...
I am loved by a man.
He wants to marry me.
He wants to spend the rest of his life with me.
He wants to share everything with me.
He wants to take care of me.
He loves me more than he thought it was possible to love some one.
And yet ...
He is only a man
and it's not enough.
I am only human
and you think that I would only need a humans love
But this is false.
We humans, we're all about waste.
Billions of pounds of trash every year; running the earth out of it's resources.
We require more energy into things that we get out.
And because of that we eventual run out of energy.
So some one loving us equal to our own capacity to love isn't enough ... Eventually it would fade, therefor it is conditional
This man is everything I have dreamed for
and yet he's not enough
I need more
I thirst for more
I thirst for unconditional, undying, undenied love that comes from only one thing: God.
I want to be filled to the brim with this love and then love others. I want God to love through me just so I can feel it flow through me, just to get a brush of the grace in Him. Just the idea takes my breath away ...
It amazes me how much He loves me, and that constant unwavering love is so easy to take for granted ... if you don't have to work to maintain it then it's easy to forget it's there.
I am begining to realize that I don't love Him enough; and I can't love Him enough; heck I can't even pray to Him with out His help.
Compared to God I'm a mumbling; illiterate fool that he has to constantly care for.
He loves me so much he can't take his eyes off me.
Can't take His eyes off this broken, twisted being.
He loves me so much that even though I'm full of sin He forgave me, He knows what I really am inside, He knows how ugly I am and yet he still loves me. He comforts me, soothes me, surrounds me with love and mends my wounds. He is fixing me ...
He is so amazing, and I am nothing compared to Him ... I ask myself often, why? Why do I diserve this? ... and I believe deep down that I don't .... I just cling on to Jesus and pray that I worship Him enough, that I am open enough to him, that everyday I open the door and let him in ...