family complaints...

[winddancefaiiry]

Damn extended family. They are so materalistic it makes me sick. I got about 5 presents total from people there, and everyone else got about 10 or more. I didn't want anything really, so they didn't cheat me out but I felt so out of place sitting there watching all the waste being produced, watching people eat too much, looking at the presents and going "my god, I feel sick. I have friends who would have used this money to pay for education, food, clothing or anything else necessary and here my family is with lists where nothing is under $30." I got 2 presents knitted while I was there, and that made me feel even more out of place - sitting there with my little cousins at my feet opening boxes of plastic toys while I was knitting something PERSONAL for my friends. Anyone can go out and buy those shirts my cousins got, but it's a lot harder to go find the stuff I was making. I'd rather spend a 1/4 of the money they did to buy things like yarn and paints and scrapbooking materials and make little things for friends. Honestly the word and phrase that kept going through my mind as I watched all the crap being opened were "materalists! conspicious consumers!"
I HATE GOING TO THAT PLACE FOR CHRISTMAS!
I got the best present anyway, my acceptance letter. The only other thing that would make my holiday week complete would be to see a certain someone...*slightly wistful sigh*