what's worse?

[windcriesmegan]

feelings sad or having people know that i'm not well?

right now I am sad. right now I am crying and feeling low. And I think about the people that care about me, and I think about calling them, but that means they know I'm not better. and if they know I'm not well, they why would they want me in their life?

Comments

[out_of_range04]

friendship, family, whatever else. We're in it for the good and the bad. Don't be so hard on yourself. People want you to feel better, but it's not because that's the only way they want you in their lives. They want the amazing awesome Megan in their lives b/c you makes them feel better too.

And having the sad times, doesn't negate everything else you've worked so hard for, don't forget that.

[windcriesmegan]

I get it. I want my friends and family in my life even when theyre feeling sad, but its something about me, that when Im the sad one, I dont think people want me around. As my therapist would say, I think im a special case, when really I'm not. But somehow my brain always convinces me that people dont want sad people around them

on another note:
I was thinking about our hermatige apartment, and I missed you. well im always missing you.

xoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxox

[out_of_range04]

i think a lot of the time people don't want sad people around them who don't want to be picked up, or who refuse to be openminded about their potential or worth. if the only thing you can focus on is that you're sad and thus unlikable, it's very selfdefeating.

[windcriesmegan]

i completely understand that. Its a self fulfilling prophecy.

[trishuhlishus]

stop not calling me! i actually talked to you about your sad posts before i read this one. when i see you in twenty minutes, i am going to punch you with a hug.