I cant sleep
where am I going in life? I'm always going to be living with depression, but is it always going to be controlling me?
Lately I've been thinking about my hobbies and Im thinking I need to just give up on making music. I dont feel as though I have any talent. I havent written a song in over a year. no motivation, and when I do play I focus on how terrible I am. Already its so hard for people to make career out of music, and me, without drive and talent and knowledge, seem to be doomed. Should I just give up?
I've been thinking about joining roller derby, I dont even know if I'd be good. I know that I have fun at the bouts. Cheering on Norma Lee and the Double Crossers. its a big commitment. time and money, neither of which I think I have.
I feel so lost and I know thats typical of early 20's adults, but really I have no idea where to try to steer my life into. I feel like I'm not good at anything. or that the things I'm good at, I dont enjoy.
I know life isn't fair, but when will it be fair enough?
The absence of bad does not equal good.
Lately I've been thinking about my hobbies and Im thinking I need to just give up on making music. I dont feel as though I have any talent. I havent written a song in over a year. no motivation, and when I do play I focus on how terrible I am. Already its so hard for people to make career out of music, and me, without drive and talent and knowledge, seem to be doomed. Should I just give up?
I've been thinking about joining roller derby, I dont even know if I'd be good. I know that I have fun at the bouts. Cheering on Norma Lee and the Double Crossers. its a big commitment. time and money, neither of which I think I have.
I feel so lost and I know thats typical of early 20's adults, but really I have no idea where to try to steer my life into. I feel like I'm not good at anything. or that the things I'm good at, I dont enjoy.
I know life isn't fair, but when will it be fair enough?
The absence of bad does not equal good.