Spinning...
my head is going in circles. And I see myself obsessing already. What is it about this certain person where I give up what I've worked so hard for?
I need to stop thinking. and over-analyzing. and dwelling. and hoping....
Work is still crushing me. I've taken steps to decrease my anxiety about things, but it sometimes isn't enough. I broke down and started crying in front of everyone on Thursday. Ben felt uncomfortable about me crying. He tried to make me feel better saying "it's just a job." and when my supervisor talking to me while still crying she said, "you can only do so much."
And I understand that, but those are completely different messages that I got from her a few weeks ago.
So I guess I need to make a balance between being responsible for everything, and not letting that stress get to me.
le sigh.
I need to stop thinking. and over-analyzing. and dwelling. and hoping....
Work is still crushing me. I've taken steps to decrease my anxiety about things, but it sometimes isn't enough. I broke down and started crying in front of everyone on Thursday. Ben felt uncomfortable about me crying. He tried to make me feel better saying "it's just a job." and when my supervisor talking to me while still crying she said, "you can only do so much."
And I understand that, but those are completely different messages that I got from her a few weeks ago.
So I guess I need to make a balance between being responsible for everything, and not letting that stress get to me.
le sigh.